(755.) Kind Deeds 04/27/07 12:30 AM
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I apologize
I'll stop bragging
It takes away the glory
I truly am sorry
I will continue my actions
Just limit my words

(756.) And Who Could That Be? 04/30/07 ? - 1:35 AM
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There's a fine line between
That which we can hold
And that which we can grasp
Love is something we can hold
But I fear we'll never grasp it

I am a man(boy) of solitude,
because people are so fragile
Like an antique shop
I will gladly look
But I'm so afraid to touch
Surely my fingers will turn
porcelain to dust

I'm a needy little flower
Not a demanding one though
Water me occasionally
Shower me with sunshine
When the clouds aren't out
And I'll be fine

I'm going somewhere
I'm not fully sure where
Could even be nowhere
But I'll get there

I'm stuck in the muck and the mire
Feeding coal into a self-sustaining fire
The flames may rise
But they'll just die back down

I'll share the warmth
But I'll need a hearth

So will you be a sun?
Warm me with a hug
Shower me with affection
Help me grow

Or just a shovel
Drowning me in soot
Feeding a never-ending flame
Helping me inflate full of emptiness

I'm not looking for love
It can find me
And I will greet it at the door
But it'll have to earn my trust
Before I ever let it in

I hear a rapping
An ever gentle tapping
Is it you at my door?


(757.) Other Languages 05/02/07 11:24 PM - 11:26 PM
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I think we spend our lives
Trying to learn another language
Than that we're born into
Some people study Spanish,
French,
Japanese,
or
any other language such as this
I myself have engrossed myself
in the language of thought
of interaction
Philosophy
Psychology
I'm no expert
But I'm honing my skills
I can pronounce my words right
Sound out each part of my words
Get the meaning across
But while I'm getting better at speaking
I'm still horrible at translating
Does she even like me?

(758.) Holding Hands 05/02/07 11:27 PM - 11:27 PM
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Life isn't all about
holding hands and writing poems
But I wish it were
She told me her life was
So we held hands
And I wrote this poem

(759.) 05/02/07 3:54 PM - 3:55 PM
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A reason for choosing you?
Let me think...
I don't need one.
No metaphors here.
Just, me.
I should hope that's reason enough for any emotion.
No reason at all.

(760.) I'll Buy That Camera Someday 05/05/07 ? - 4:23 PM
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I tried taking a photograph
Of that pulchritudinous face
But realized
it wasn't her face that I wanted to keep
And I didn't have a camera
That could capture such a sumptuous
soul

(761.) Awaking In Silence 05/06/07 11:21 PM - 11:22 PM
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in those gentles silences
in the abscence of her voice
i worry
my mind makes connections
to feelings i don't understand
axons sending messages
to recievers that should be dead
but fresh emotions awakin
and i am lonely
when all i should be
is thankful

(762.) Myself 05/06/07 11:23 PM - ?
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It's true
everyone has a standard
A Christ
A Buddha
That they strive to be
Is it truly wrong of me
to strive to be myself?

That's me there on that cross
Sitting beneath that tree
Dwelling in the abstract
Of lines dividing into trinity

There's a gentleness in my eyes
And scars all over my flesh
Marks from all my sacrifices
I have begun to mesh

Indentions on my soul
Where words have lashed
But I'm still moving
Shoddy, rusted, needing oil and gas and faith

But I am still living
Breathing
Becoming
Myself


(763.) Those Smiles Keep Distracting Me 08/05/07 4:52 AM
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I'm such a sucker
For a prety girl with a smile
I stopped holding her hand
And wrote this poem

(764.) Ugly 08/05/07 7:24 PM - 7:25 PM
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I'm an ugly man
With ugly hands
That make ugly art
That I show to other ugly people
Who welcome frank in for a visit
Then we talk of beauty
As we sip our ugly liquids
Or drag our ugly habits
We live in ugly houses
Bought with ugly money
Made in an ugly society
But we're aiming for beauty
And there's something beautiful about that

(765.) 13/05/07 4:33 PM - 4:35 PM
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I saw a man and his wife
Sitting on the street
Their two children
At the end of leashes
Obidiently sitting
Waiting for mama
and papa
To make enough to feed them
The couple's bags
were large with clothes
and trinkets
from adventures across the world
They were selling junk
made into art
and jewewlry
I gave them $2.11
My step-father said
"You're only encouraging them."
"Good."
Was the only way I knew
to respond


(766.) If I Say It Is, Let's Hope It Is 14/05/07 12:33 AM - 12:42 AM
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I wanted to write a love poem
This is a love poem
Because I said so
Her eyes were small
The large glasses framed them
And made them seem even smaller
He winked as he pushed them off
She doesn't know what she wants from life
Fuck me
That's right
Telling me that will surely make it better
My brain is showing!
New skin
new day
And I think I want a tatoo on the back of my neck
I'll shave my head on the 25th
There is no poetic allusion here
Or is there?
I don't know
This is a love poem
Atleast I think so
The other girl
She was a bitch
No two ways around it
But she hid it well
Quick to judge
But fun loving
They were both fun loving
RAGE
RAGE AWAY
Just for a kiss
The end of the world
Over a fucking kiss
God he's a monster
There should be a comma there
Right?
God COULD be a monster
I mean....
Anything is possible
There she was
sitting on his lap
telling him what she wanted
I wonder if she ever got it?
he was getting on a plane
and leaving
running away
from all his sins
they still will fester in his mind
new beginings
lies
liars
This is a love poem
I hope
Because I feel something
And I don't know what else to call it

(767.) 770-286-2204 05/14/07 12:55 AM - 12:58 AM
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Please
Ring
Vibrate
Sing to me
Bring me good news
Great news
Give me hope
Wake me up
To make me smile
Ignore that I'm angry
Ignore that I'm sad
I'll fill you up every night
And you'll shine bright
Every night
Every day
Your display hints an your innards
but I'll never know if you don't open up
Pull out your antenna
Pick up my waves
Realize I'm calling
Answer
Because I want to hear your sweet voice
Over a phone
And nothing else quite makes the silence
Seem so silent
As the absence of your voice

(768.)
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There it was
That twang on my heart string
her smile was sweet
He didn't care
I could have a girl
Not any girl
But I could have a girl
Doesn't she realize that?
She can have a boy
Oh she can have a boy
I'm sorry I keep turning you gals down
You can have me I guess
But I don't want to be bogged down
I don't want to break any hearts
On second thought
I can't have a girl
I'm not responsible enough

(769.)Can't Hear You 05/15/07 10:52 PM - 10:54 PM
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God,
Can you hear me?
If so speak up,
I can't hear you.
I never could hear you.
I wondered if I was deaf
When all the other kids said they heard you
I still can't hear you.
I can't feel you
I don't know you
But I want to
Just no one seems to answer
When I call out at night
No human
No God
Nothing inbetween
It's lonely
And I can't hear you.

(770.) 05/15/07 10:55 PM - 10:58 PM
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Jewels laid washed on the shore
As his face kept changing
No.
His face stayed the same
No flesh
Different hats
Different hair
Same look in his eyes
My brain
Is br
ok
en
ne
ko
rb
Hands had flesh
Gray wings molted everywhere
he held it
held it tight
Nothing more beautiful
Nothing at all
Man asked a question
God didn't know the answer
Man made God
God made man
The cycle was nice
But where did it start?
It starts now
With this thought
Life is born
Life ends
Life becomes
Life

(771.) 05/20/07 3:00 AM
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I want to hold you in my arms
and wish away the
days and nights
Forget about the
delays and fights
I just wanna love you

(772.) God Damn I Hope She Remembers 12:58 AM - 1:00 AM
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There's a fog rollin in
But I got a fan
There's a tide washin up
But I got a plan
I'll hold you tight
Won't shut-up
We've got all night
To talk
Open up
Won't you please talk with me?
Let me in
I want to see
Just how you tick
Oh God....
I'm writing shitty rhyming love poems again.
I can't give up my artistic integrity.
Well maybe I can,
But only for you
.....damnit

(773.) It Seers It's Marks In My Eyes 05/21/07 ? - 9:13 PM
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This is anger
So rarely do I understand my emotions so clearly
But this...this is anger in it's purest form
It is irrational
So I do not express it
But it is still inside me
There is no denying that
I worry
For I fear nothing
And that scares me
So I must worry about other's fears
This is for every coward
Who idly stands by
And allows for the destruction of what he loves
I am angry
Calm
But filled with rage
I will craft it into a weapon
of purest intent
And strike fear in the heart
Only my heart though
No need to share this burden
I reached out
To preserve what I consider beauty
And it recoiled to my touch
Because a coward dangled it from a string
Anger
That is what I feel
It burns me
It rips me inside out
And keeps me warm
I will use my anger for better things
Before I end up hating you.

(774.) ? ? ?
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I saw a strike against beauty
A tear in her eye
And some bastard somewhere
May very well be going unpunished
For the gravest crime I know

(775.) ? ? ?
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He is a good man
Does his work when asked
Friends to anyone who wants one
Charming
Always smiling
Girls pay him no mind
No mind more than a shoulder to cry on
He deserves a good girl
But all he has is a cup of tears
A few tread marks
and a smile

(776.)
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I was a child
And I put on shoes too big
And a belt so loose
And an knowledge too small
But I claimed adulthood
Much to learn
Much to see
Stop growing up so fast
You only seem to ruin things in your hurry
Be mature
Not impatient
The bird sings of lost loves
The sea responds with death
That boy rests on it's shores listening
Maturing
But I am not that boy
And no one sings me a song
But I sit and listen
Waiting for a note
To carry itself to me
So I can grow up
I try singing my own song
It too falls on deaf ears
I've broken beauty
Listen to your own advice
"Don't just be a knight in shining armor."
"Human emotions are no game."
She probably hates you now
And what do you do?
You write a poem
That you'll never show her
We hunt
That which retreats
From us
You know that.
Why did you chase her?
I wanted her to make her feel better
But look what you've done
I know
God do I know....
A thousand apologies
you give her
But,
if you hadn't been so brash,
to begin with
not a single one would be needed
Stop and rebuild
And feel horrible
That you leave her to rebuild herself
Justifiable?
Unwanted help is more hurtful than helpful
Just feel bad
And move along
Sing a song
That will fall on deaf ears
Have your feet washed over by death's murmurs
And wait for someone to sing back

(777.)
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He offered the only thing he had left
His sanity
And they eagerly accepted
And so he bought it
His freedom
From rational thought

(778.) Tempation Is A Cream Soda, Caring Is My Blood 05/31/07 3:04 AM 3:07 AM
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Speak to me of logic
Touch me with your lust
I see all the error in your words
Your two-sided words
But I still held on
Despite the burning
The simple pain of it all
Drowning in my own faith
Did I seal any holes?
Or just open more wounds?
the after-taste of this sadness
is oddly happier than I expected
So I lick temptation off this fork
Drank of much caring
Not a drop of my sustenance
do you want
or probably need
Can't stop me from offering though.

(779.) My Vow 5:45 PM - 5:58 PM 05/31/07
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Please don't make me go
I want to stay and help them
Every last one
Let me be reborn again
So I can help more
Don't make me just die out
This candle will burn forever
If you let it
PLEASE
Let it
They are not meaningless
Because I give them meaning
I have no authority
But here,
hold my hand
I will let you know
I am real
You are real
We are real
You are not alone
You are unique
Why?
because you have me
You deserve more
But I can't give you more
I give you all that I have
Oh
Do you not understand?
You're not just another fun for me
You are a purpose
A reason
And I would like to be your reason
You are special
I will not ask for more than I need
I will not disrespect your gifts by taking less than you offer
But I will spread your gifts to others
I will not drink of the cup of lust
No matter how much my body craves it
I will only crave you
Who you are
I don't know
BUT I LIVE FOR YOU
And I realize
that you may not live for me


I will falter
But not on purpose
And when I trip
I will not fall
I will recollect and move on
Head high
I will be proud of who I am
I will be ashamed of my actions
But I will be proud of my apologies
of the lessons I learn
Of my actions to prevent more mistakes
But I will make them
And I will apologize
and I will learn
I wish happiness
For you
and everyone else
because we all deserve it
because I say so
but I know I hold no more bearing
than you
or anyone else for that matter
but that doesn't make what I proclaim
any less important
This goes to those to be born
this goes to those born
this goes to those reborn
unborn
and those who are no longer able to have the word born used about them
I will do something that matters
I will make life better
For all of you
I will honor your memories
I will help you build new memories
I will help
I will do
good
And I will love
I will love everyone
But more so
I will love someone
Very special
I wonder what her name will be
And someday I hope to come back this
And put her name in this hole
I LOVE ___________
This is my proclamation
My creed
My holy text
Full of egotistical babble
I swear my life by these words
I swear my soul on these words
I sign my heart in this poem
I will love you
I will hold you to let you know we are real
I will give meaning where there is none
I will think where there is no thought
And I will never let anyone get lost in the change
Here is my hand
In peace
In civility
In hopes
In dreams
In marriage
In yours
Let's work together
To do
good

(780.) Howard
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Eyes raw.
Heart exposed
Not a hole in his chest
or a whole medal on his sleeve
No,
it was in his palm
daring her to take it
to destroy the one thing she desired
daring her to touch
it's mere existance mocking her
"You need me."
No more needed to be said
nothing was said
Much more was implied
She would destroy him
Because no one else deserved to look at him
He was beauty
He was art
He was something made for her
And the fact that others got to see him
Killed her
slowly
But he showed no fear
Every tendon placed perfectly
He was an ugly man
By most standards
but he was an ideal
he was what man should be
and in this he was not man
She tried
every weapon she could find
oh she tried
But he was calm
And her lashes raped his body
but not his being
The soul is real
his body was weak
it did not hold him in
but he was calm
Calmer than anything you could imagine
Only one man saw his anger
And that man bear-witness to the greatest tragedy
in all existence
it was destruction
it was death
from its' ashes he rose
Better
Than all of us
And calmer
He was the proudest man you'd ever meet
But he never judged others
lest they asked him to
She was unimportant
Because she made herself as such
but she could not be anything but herself
when he held her
because she was important
only because he definded her
and whatever else he wanted
Man stood tall
And defied the world
In such,
He defined it