(678.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a certain aspect to them
An endless well of life constantly flowing
But it's hidden away
like a brook deep within caverns
No man will wash in it's youthful ambrosia
For it's a river inside of his temple
It's not private
Just not in public
You'll never drink from the eternal though
Because you won't get to know him
(679.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
He looks so goofy
lip synching
Words from the cords
(680.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
They're holding hands
Exchanging words
Parting ways
Holding more hands
(681.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Playing sad songs on no instrument
That make depressing sounds
Take lessons
Teach yourself
Just for the love of happiness
Play a cheerier song
(682.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Won't you please believe me
Trist is earned
But you never gave me a chance for any
No, you won't believe me will you.
(683.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I sat in fire
To see if it burned
I listened to what others said
But I just had to feel it
for myself
And it burned
I stayed beneath the water
to see if my lungs would collapse
if what they said was true
They were right
and I choked out the last bit
of water
I fell in love
to see what it was like
I listened to what others said
nothing said twice
no definitions
it was glorious
but it ended
and what they said came true
and my heart collapsed
and it burned
(684.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
She stood between me and my reflection
a warm smile
porcelain skin
forceful touch would crack her spirit
And that body could barely hold in such a grand soul
She was a god draped in humanity
Each inch worth more than my whole
Dancing around the room
out of my sight
leaving me forelorn
i saw myself
every useless inch
the meaningless whole
rough hands
weathered eyes
and an unworthy love
I spoke out
"Thank you,
for being you,
and loving me."
(685.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I don't think you're beautiful
I think you're pretty
But not beautiful
I don't think you're amazing
I think you're interesting
But not amazing
I don't think I want to be your lover
I think I'd like to be your friend
But not your lover
(686.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Love is an excuse for logic to fail
Teenagers use it all the time
Rarely anyone knows it's true meaning
And those who do
are ficional
(687.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Sad sons played
for an apathetic crowd
That claims to see God
In oil stains,
grilled cheese,
cracked glass,
and their own reflection
(688.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
he came back
full of false truths
and he filled the rest
full of hope
(689.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're smarter than that
You're chasing love,
but you know better
You've got your entire life in front of you
But you have a different boy every week
Tasting of their lust
I've been down to the water
I've been drunk off that sweet river
With her godlike taste on my lips
But the river from which you sip,
is poisoned by lust
You're better than this
You're beautiful
You know who you are
And you know better.
(690.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
he was speaking in a language
that only men such as him spoke
And he translated it over again in his head
And again
A language of numbers
That explain all of life
I read what he wrote
And he translated again
Into his own language
That none of us knew
(691.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a place beyond your side
And far beyond mine.
Where neither matters
And gardens grow
Meet me there
We will disscuss the world
And smell the flowers
(692.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Fear not the sleeping dreamers
They will wake and ther dreams melt away
Take not lightly the man who dreams waking
He dreams with both eyes open to the world
He will never awake to falsities
Only live to the fruition of his dreams
(693.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I will walk on pathways made of stars
Peering over lakes of black
And breathing in false air
I'm in the dead city
Someday they'll walk on me
(694.) My Privilege 12:09 AM - 12:12 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I shall eat a single apple
And call it dinner
I never heated the food I said I would
More important things to attend to
I will do what I want with my life
And call it my right
It's my world after-all
Isn't it?
I'm not sure what my life is anymore.
But I'll call it a privilege
Treat it as such
And take it for granted
(695.) It Was So Depressing 02/27/07 10:14 PM - 10:17 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Death walked slowly towards us
She reached out her hand for me
I grabbed it
But it was already cold
The look in her eyes told me to pull
Please in the name of everything I hold dear
Pull
I did
But she didn't move
Her wings crumpled beneath the blows
Mine too weak from battle to help
And I pulled
And pulled
And kissed her
And held her to my chest
So she could hear my life still coursing
And I cried to death
"Take me instead, please oh please, take me instead."
Her hands were cold
Her cheeks were cold
Her heart was silent
But her eyes begged me to keep trying
(696.) Impress The World? 03/01/07 12:54 AM - 12:57 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
She pointed out that I commented on my own speech
As if constantly writing notes for my autobiography
And questioned herself,
perhaps he is trying to impress someone?
no, you have impressed everyone you could ever want to
Then why?
Because I would rather impress myself
and make my mother proud
Than impress the world
And she is proud no matter what I do,
so that leaves only one thing left
Impress myself
(697.) Open Flames I Share With You 03/01/07 12:57 AM - 1:00 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Our joy is an open flame
and all others are a hearth
waiting to accommodate
Our sorrow is a never ending glass of water
and others basins waiting to be filled
Share in your burden so that your glass may not break
but do not drown others so that theirs may
Warm others hearts with your happiness
but do not smother them with your flames
(698.) The World Is Too Much With Us? 03/01/07 1:00 AM - 1:07 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
He said the World is too much with us
And I believe him
For I want all the world to be with me
She said we are our own infinite
That she was part of it
And all was an extension of her
but human logic is flawed in this way
I believe that there is a limit
To infinite
There is a number
that is the highest we can ever achieve
and it is one less
than the lowest
I told her of the religion
Where we are all one
She said she hated religion
I love religion
I want true religion
For in true religion,
I find true life
She called it nothing more than Death Insurance
I call it reassurance
but I shall never know true religion
until it is too late
so I shall work backwards
I will find true life
And then find true religion
But true life for me
is so different for others
Thus their true religion must also be different
I think I speak of spiritual humanism
Least that is what my fore-fathers named it
I call it truth
I want not to hamper anyone's happiness
Ghandi said be the change you wish to see in the world
I live my life on this
I do not impose on others
what I believe to be true
As I said
True life for me
is not true life for all
Truly then,
the world IS too much with us
(699.) My Sentence 03/05/07 10:15 PM - 10:20 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I have recieved my sentence
I shall die someday
and go to hell
or be reborn lower on the chain
or cease to be
or many other possible things
each one more depressing than the last
unless I repent
accept blindly what others offer me
drink from cups stained with many lips
poisoned with human greed
but based in human purity
how am I suppose to know the amount of poison?
drink
and know that someday I will die
a second death
or abstain
and die only once
(700.) Let's See How Far I Can Reach 03/05/07 10:20 PM - 11:36 PM, 03/07/07 - 03/08/07 11:27 PM - 12:27 PM 03/10/07 6:49 PM - 6:57 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I will write only a few words here
then I shall reach out
and touch the souls of loved ones
return
and share my feeling
to answer you
How close does love get to infinite?
My Father:
His passion is in the stars
and the patterns of the universe
we are 92955800 miles from the sun
(with varying degrees of accuracy)
and I feel even if I traveled that distance
twice over
I'd be no closer to him in ideals
he says I am a reflection of him
23 chromosomes gathered and given
23 taken and combined
I am a reflection of you
and of my mother
and of the world
The world is a cold and ugly place
if you do not accept it's ways
my mother is probably no less
and you do not accept my ways
be proud of who I am
as I am the one who made it
and you made me
be proud of your seed
someday it will outgrow you
and provide more shade
than you gave it
Kassi:
She has no time for such talks
no time for me is what she means
I was young
same of her
and I found what it means to drink
of a cup of faith
faith in her
which I still place
but for once she revokes faith
and logic and reason
have proven the theory of me
to be false
It hurts
It truly hurts
when you see faith in you
diminish
from what you believed to be absolute
Watching God die,
is a sorrow undescribeable
My mother:
Has seen me from the start
and was always there
she shares stories of my intelligence
and I ask her to stop bragging
but it makes her happy
which makes me happy
she has seen the light I've chosen
to shine upon the world
and it is a light of my own choice
she told me early in my life
be you
be mindful of others
but be you
I am me
and she's proud of me
she has so much faith in me
that I am exponentially better
Kit:
He's my companion in laughs
He's not my trust bank
But he is my best friend
What defines a best friend?
The person who you respect greatly
for being who they are
and for sharing with you
who they wish to become
He has told me of his goals
but I don't tell him of mine
he's uninterested
and I wish not to bore him
but he still is my best friend
perhaps the ties go deeper than I realize
For the others:
I have chosen love as my religion
I have put faith in people
Some say it has false grounding
I say God is no better
I say I am no better
Than they
Love means so much to me
And so different
I tell few people "I love you"
Because to me it means:
Everything I have to give,
I give to you.
Were I to have more,
it would all be yours.
I need to love more people.
(701.) My Life
=---------------------------------------------------=
X = L
L =((C-F)/(M-l+f)) to the power of ω
C = ΩT
F = t/Ω
M = αN
α = m+i
m = -Ω/(T-t)
i = -Ω2/(T2-t2)
N = -l
l = (ΩC)/m
f = mαt
X = Who I Am
L = The sum of my life
C = Correct Knowledge
F = False Knowledge
M = mistakes I've made
l = lesson I've learned
T = truth I am taught
Ω = My Logic
t = falses I am taught
α = my error
N = my naivety
i = others ignorance
m = my own ignorance
f = False lessons learned
ω = Faith
(702.)I'm Too Cocky 03/06/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
You watch me
Label me as weird
As if your opinions
Would somehow cure me
of this wretched disease
you've diagnosed me with
Each and every part of me
I have poured my blood and tears into
crafted from diamonds in my soul
it is a tower of me
you may strike it's walls
but I will mend your scars
to you it looks like a shack
to me it is a home
Just because
you don't udnerstand
the paint splattered on a canvas
doesn't make it any less
than someone's soul
portrayed forever
I am my soul
I show you my soul
Show some gratitude
It's my gift to you
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a certain aspect to them
An endless well of life constantly flowing
But it's hidden away
like a brook deep within caverns
No man will wash in it's youthful ambrosia
For it's a river inside of his temple
It's not private
Just not in public
You'll never drink from the eternal though
Because you won't get to know him
(679.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
He looks so goofy
lip synching
Words from the cords
(680.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
They're holding hands
Exchanging words
Parting ways
Holding more hands
(681.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Playing sad songs on no instrument
That make depressing sounds
Take lessons
Teach yourself
Just for the love of happiness
Play a cheerier song
(682.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Won't you please believe me
Trist is earned
But you never gave me a chance for any
No, you won't believe me will you.
(683.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I sat in fire
To see if it burned
I listened to what others said
But I just had to feel it
for myself
And it burned
I stayed beneath the water
to see if my lungs would collapse
if what they said was true
They were right
and I choked out the last bit
of water
I fell in love
to see what it was like
I listened to what others said
nothing said twice
no definitions
it was glorious
but it ended
and what they said came true
and my heart collapsed
and it burned
(684.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
She stood between me and my reflection
a warm smile
porcelain skin
forceful touch would crack her spirit
And that body could barely hold in such a grand soul
She was a god draped in humanity
Each inch worth more than my whole
Dancing around the room
out of my sight
leaving me forelorn
i saw myself
every useless inch
the meaningless whole
rough hands
weathered eyes
and an unworthy love
I spoke out
"Thank you,
for being you,
and loving me."
(685.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I don't think you're beautiful
I think you're pretty
But not beautiful
I don't think you're amazing
I think you're interesting
But not amazing
I don't think I want to be your lover
I think I'd like to be your friend
But not your lover
(686.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Love is an excuse for logic to fail
Teenagers use it all the time
Rarely anyone knows it's true meaning
And those who do
are ficional
(687.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Sad sons played
for an apathetic crowd
That claims to see God
In oil stains,
grilled cheese,
cracked glass,
and their own reflection
(688.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
he came back
full of false truths
and he filled the rest
full of hope
(689.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
You're smarter than that
You're chasing love,
but you know better
You've got your entire life in front of you
But you have a different boy every week
Tasting of their lust
I've been down to the water
I've been drunk off that sweet river
With her godlike taste on my lips
But the river from which you sip,
is poisoned by lust
You're better than this
You're beautiful
You know who you are
And you know better.
(690.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
he was speaking in a language
that only men such as him spoke
And he translated it over again in his head
And again
A language of numbers
That explain all of life
I read what he wrote
And he translated again
Into his own language
That none of us knew
(691.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
There's a place beyond your side
And far beyond mine.
Where neither matters
And gardens grow
Meet me there
We will disscuss the world
And smell the flowers
(692.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
Fear not the sleeping dreamers
They will wake and ther dreams melt away
Take not lightly the man who dreams waking
He dreams with both eyes open to the world
He will never awake to falsities
Only live to the fruition of his dreams
(693.) <02/14/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
I will walk on pathways made of stars
Peering over lakes of black
And breathing in false air
I'm in the dead city
Someday they'll walk on me
(694.) My Privilege 12:09 AM - 12:12 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I shall eat a single apple
And call it dinner
I never heated the food I said I would
More important things to attend to
I will do what I want with my life
And call it my right
It's my world after-all
Isn't it?
I'm not sure what my life is anymore.
But I'll call it a privilege
Treat it as such
And take it for granted
(695.) It Was So Depressing 02/27/07 10:14 PM - 10:17 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Death walked slowly towards us
She reached out her hand for me
I grabbed it
But it was already cold
The look in her eyes told me to pull
Please in the name of everything I hold dear
Pull
I did
But she didn't move
Her wings crumpled beneath the blows
Mine too weak from battle to help
And I pulled
And pulled
And kissed her
And held her to my chest
So she could hear my life still coursing
And I cried to death
"Take me instead, please oh please, take me instead."
Her hands were cold
Her cheeks were cold
Her heart was silent
But her eyes begged me to keep trying
(696.) Impress The World? 03/01/07 12:54 AM - 12:57 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
She pointed out that I commented on my own speech
As if constantly writing notes for my autobiography
And questioned herself,
perhaps he is trying to impress someone?
no, you have impressed everyone you could ever want to
Then why?
Because I would rather impress myself
and make my mother proud
Than impress the world
And she is proud no matter what I do,
so that leaves only one thing left
Impress myself
(697.) Open Flames I Share With You 03/01/07 12:57 AM - 1:00 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
Our joy is an open flame
and all others are a hearth
waiting to accommodate
Our sorrow is a never ending glass of water
and others basins waiting to be filled
Share in your burden so that your glass may not break
but do not drown others so that theirs may
Warm others hearts with your happiness
but do not smother them with your flames
(698.) The World Is Too Much With Us? 03/01/07 1:00 AM - 1:07 AM
=---------------------------------------------------=
He said the World is too much with us
And I believe him
For I want all the world to be with me
She said we are our own infinite
That she was part of it
And all was an extension of her
but human logic is flawed in this way
I believe that there is a limit
To infinite
There is a number
that is the highest we can ever achieve
and it is one less
than the lowest
I told her of the religion
Where we are all one
She said she hated religion
I love religion
I want true religion
For in true religion,
I find true life
She called it nothing more than Death Insurance
I call it reassurance
but I shall never know true religion
until it is too late
so I shall work backwards
I will find true life
And then find true religion
But true life for me
is so different for others
Thus their true religion must also be different
I think I speak of spiritual humanism
Least that is what my fore-fathers named it
I call it truth
I want not to hamper anyone's happiness
Ghandi said be the change you wish to see in the world
I live my life on this
I do not impose on others
what I believe to be true
As I said
True life for me
is not true life for all
Truly then,
the world IS too much with us
(699.) My Sentence 03/05/07 10:15 PM - 10:20 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I have recieved my sentence
I shall die someday
and go to hell
or be reborn lower on the chain
or cease to be
or many other possible things
each one more depressing than the last
unless I repent
accept blindly what others offer me
drink from cups stained with many lips
poisoned with human greed
but based in human purity
how am I suppose to know the amount of poison?
drink
and know that someday I will die
a second death
or abstain
and die only once
(700.) Let's See How Far I Can Reach 03/05/07 10:20 PM - 11:36 PM, 03/07/07 - 03/08/07 11:27 PM - 12:27 PM 03/10/07 6:49 PM - 6:57 PM
=---------------------------------------------------=
I will write only a few words here
then I shall reach out
and touch the souls of loved ones
return
and share my feeling
to answer you
How close does love get to infinite?
My Father:
His passion is in the stars
and the patterns of the universe
we are 92955800 miles from the sun
(with varying degrees of accuracy)
and I feel even if I traveled that distance
twice over
I'd be no closer to him in ideals
he says I am a reflection of him
23 chromosomes gathered and given
23 taken and combined
I am a reflection of you
and of my mother
and of the world
The world is a cold and ugly place
if you do not accept it's ways
my mother is probably no less
and you do not accept my ways
be proud of who I am
as I am the one who made it
and you made me
be proud of your seed
someday it will outgrow you
and provide more shade
than you gave it
Kassi:
She has no time for such talks
no time for me is what she means
I was young
same of her
and I found what it means to drink
of a cup of faith
faith in her
which I still place
but for once she revokes faith
and logic and reason
have proven the theory of me
to be false
It hurts
It truly hurts
when you see faith in you
diminish
from what you believed to be absolute
Watching God die,
is a sorrow undescribeable
My mother:
Has seen me from the start
and was always there
she shares stories of my intelligence
and I ask her to stop bragging
but it makes her happy
which makes me happy
she has seen the light I've chosen
to shine upon the world
and it is a light of my own choice
she told me early in my life
be you
be mindful of others
but be you
I am me
and she's proud of me
she has so much faith in me
that I am exponentially better
Kit:
He's my companion in laughs
He's not my trust bank
But he is my best friend
What defines a best friend?
The person who you respect greatly
for being who they are
and for sharing with you
who they wish to become
He has told me of his goals
but I don't tell him of mine
he's uninterested
and I wish not to bore him
but he still is my best friend
perhaps the ties go deeper than I realize
For the others:
I have chosen love as my religion
I have put faith in people
Some say it has false grounding
I say God is no better
I say I am no better
Than they
Love means so much to me
And so different
I tell few people "I love you"
Because to me it means:
Everything I have to give,
I give to you.
Were I to have more,
it would all be yours.
I need to love more people.
(701.) My Life
=---------------------------------------------------=
X = L
L =((C-F)/(M-l+f)) to the power of ω
C = ΩT
F = t/Ω
M = αN
α = m+i
m = -Ω/(T-t)
i = -Ω2/(T2-t2)
N = -l
l = (ΩC)/m
f = mαt
X = Who I Am
L = The sum of my life
C = Correct Knowledge
F = False Knowledge
M = mistakes I've made
l = lesson I've learned
T = truth I am taught
Ω = My Logic
t = falses I am taught
α = my error
N = my naivety
i = others ignorance
m = my own ignorance
f = False lessons learned
ω = Faith
(702.)I'm Too Cocky 03/06/07
=---------------------------------------------------=
You watch me
Label me as weird
As if your opinions
Would somehow cure me
of this wretched disease
you've diagnosed me with
Each and every part of me
I have poured my blood and tears into
crafted from diamonds in my soul
it is a tower of me
you may strike it's walls
but I will mend your scars
to you it looks like a shack
to me it is a home
Just because
you don't udnerstand
the paint splattered on a canvas
doesn't make it any less
than someone's soul
portrayed forever
I am my soul
I show you my soul
Show some gratitude
It's my gift to you
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