(628.) I Bathe In Sun Rays 09/29/06
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I bathe in sun rays but stay pale
I wear boots for wading when the water's not there
I wear shirts I made myself for people I'll never meet
I sacrificed my future so you can forget the past
I love the world through all the hate
An optimist amongst the pessmism
I'll change the hate to love
I'll love those that hate
For my children, for all those who come after
Have faith in one another, world is cruel
The world will be beautiful when it's your turn to run it
I'll leave a full tank of hope,
rule safely with love
The world will hate you,
it's up to you to love

(629.) I'm Not So Sad 10/21/06
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I know it seem like I am in misery
But you do mean so much to me
We fight all the time
For no reason, for no rhyme
I would feel so lost without you
I want nothing new
Please stay with me, it's all I need
Without you, I could not proceed
Please, just say you love me
That's all I need, you'll see

(630.) Speak True 10/21/06
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When yesterday my love did leave
I cried so many tears from my eyes
The feeling so betrayed inside
Her crying words turned to spies

After careful contemplation
I have come to an end
With a kiss sealed envelope
My love once again I will send

Carefully selected verbs and nouns
To her ears my heart shall bleed
If only I had the way
I would ride to her on ivory steed

Als I know of the truth
My words will mean naught
Upon recieving my love
She will detest me on the spot

I am a firm believer in one law
When I speak my true emotions with no less
Then things will work out in the end
Perhaps not how I want, but always for the best

(631.) Just Friends 10/21/06
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You're puzzling me to pieces
Pieces I can't place
I have no need for love right now
Arts bring smiles to my face

I shall watch every movie
I shall listen to every song
Actors play their parts
Young then but now long gone

I want your friendship
Please stop giving me your love
I don't want to hurt you
But I cannot make you my dove

I did not lead you on
I just gave you a smile
Passing compliments here and there
I would die for you and have my body dragged a mile

No love, please don't make me break your heart
Your joy is what I want, no, need
But being with me is not meant to be
Listen to my words and take heed

(632.) Celestial Might 10/21/06
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Love does not come easy for us humans
Yet we pray to God for safe passage

(633.) Dr. To The Wife Of Bath 10/21/06
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My dear madame new of your escapades
Leaves me rather wonderous of your spades

Perhaps you are sick and do not know it
Your sickness makes you wordly, I'll show it

I could examine you for a small fee
To be sure you caught nothing in gallalee

You can afford such a simple check
Perhaps that is more than a mole upon your neck

Though the check is simple, the price is not
My dear, my services must be bought

(634.) Her Scent Linger 10/21/06
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Can they smell it on me?
The smell of where she once was
I feel them search me over with their eyes
But do they see me?
Can they truly see who I am?
Or merely who they want to see?
I let them see what they want me to be
Because at times it's who I want to be
Beneath the skin
Under the mask
I'm here
Happy
Deep in thought
But happy
Where others find fear
I make my bed in comfort
Her scent still lingered on me
They may not smell it
but I do
And I smell their fear
Worry not, I mean no ill chance
I mean only hope for you

(635.) Climax 10/21/06
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I move them to climax of ecstacy
I spell my love in stars you shall never read

(636.) Plant Carefully Your Seeds 10/21/06
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Teenage love rarely lasts
It's not true love lest you mean it later
After they've broken every dream you gave them
And spat on every thought you've spoken
You still love them.
Stop looking for love in those who know not the meaning
Stop falling if you don't know what will catch you
Even if you somehow find love
It will not always be mutual
But go not unrequited in love
You will give till you are not but bone
They will never wear your flesh as a prideful sign
And you shall never touch their's
Choose where you sow the seeds of love
It is a fickle tree
You need warm adoration shining down
Their touch to grow in
And their love to fee from
You have only so many seeds
Only so many trees can never grow
Before you've nothing left to care for
But yourself
Lonliness is no feast
It is only empty promises
Promises that taste of sadness
Stop trying for love
When all there is to feel is hormones

(637.) Freckled Face 10/21/06
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As her world came crumbling down
It was crashing down too fast to evacuate
Despite her years of preparing
No amount of time would make the world wait

In all the worries that freckled her face
She was so beautiful
No make-up woul hide her sadness
But no lying could cover up my love so plentiful

(638.) Five Men (Incomplete) 10/21/06
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Five men stood before the door
I lost count of the stones on the floor
There were more who passed away
But that is neither this nor that way
Love, hope, trust, faith, and death
Each one could easyily be on their last breath
Love was a kind old man who lost his mind
But amongst the five he was the most one of a kind
Hope was young and full of himself
He was fading fast for cancer took his good health
Trust was shy and quite the recluse
For life had slowly tied his neck in a noose
Faith was ignorant, but kind at heart
From trusts side he would never part
Death was tall and the most confident
For the others to the grave he could have sent
Love knew more than all the rest
but his mind and soul were in unrest
Hope would not surrender to the world
Despite mankind being quite unfurled
Trust could not confide in his fellow man
Because he saw the world, and after that no man can
Faith saw the world in simple terms
In black and white his beliefs were firm
Death smiled and spoke unto the men
"Oh my brothers I remember when
The world was young
The words were sung
And we all got along.
But now that beauty is gone, I miss her song."
Beauty was the mother of them all
Of all that stood and those still to fall
Death betrayed no one
Faith picked fights with everyone
Trust was sad and frail
For hope would always try and often fail
Love stopped speaking legibley
But his words were clear to me
Or so I hope
Perhaps he asked a maiden to elope?
We're never sure what he means
Did he just ask for magic beans?
Senile in his old age
But still as wise as any sage
The men say and spoke of care
The boy who was no longer there
Who's sweet innocence warmed their soul
And made the day that much more whole
Death was frightening to those who knew him not
But his friends were calm and not distraught
Death was no one to be feared
He only guided those who needed to be steered
I find comfort in the thought of him
A light where the soul is dim
Gaurding those who lose their way
He brings hope I would say
Yet he still strikes dissent into everyone
If you took time to know him, this would not be done

(639.) Perhaps My Thoughts Will Return 10/22/06
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I'm feeling rather empty,
Not sure what to write
Nothing feels right
Perhaps my thought are gone

(640.) Wearing Make-up 10/22/06
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Something poetic?
Is that all I need to say?
My heart flutters like fireflies on a summer night
It's bullshit
just covering up the simple,
In a beautiful way
I'd much rather just say "I'm heart-broken"
but that's not pretty enough
I'm feeling like god himself has groped my insides
the divine feeling of being punished
Just can't be described by "I'm heart broken"
No, fate itself has proverbially fucked my innards
I just want the pain to stop
This melancholy drifting does me no good
Dolling it up with words does me no better
But I find consolance in those words
Those life jacket like words
Keeping my head barely above depression
I'm sinking
I'm drowning
I'm just sad
Why won't she just let me on the boat?

(641.) This is a bad poem 10/22/06
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Boo said the ghost of christmas past
They all cried out as the apirition flew fast
Down main street he dissapeared
Fat with food, choking be the only thing he feared
Eat and eat was all he knew
Choked to death becase he didn't chew

Chew his food he did not
So soon to life he said adieu

(642.) Words Fail 10/22/06
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Why should I lie by saying words?
Words cannot describe this emotion
That it is better to speak
than to keep this feeling inside me
But what is this emotion?
It's not love
It's not friendship
It's wanting to warm you when you're cold
It's wanting to dry your tears
It's wanting to make you happy
So, fucking happy
But not being able to show it
Because I'm too scared you'll ask
What I call it
And you know not the word

(643.) God's Art 10/25/06
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God's brush sroke
He has painted the very sun into the sky
With small swirls wind awaken the leaves
dancing with each other
with their crimson colors
such as embers round flame
When all the leaves have floated away
when the trees are barren with despair
A simple stroke and blossoms burst with life
One slash of paint strikes down all that stand in God's way
God is an artist
He paints in vibrant love
what is the color of love?
it is the color of the soul
The color of the unknown
to express the enigma
which defines life
with artful care
God will paint us the world
God will manifest us with celestial brush
You say life is ugly
I say it is beautiful
Let us not judge the art of God
Merely admire the picture

(644.) Hold Out, I'm Coming 10/25/06
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One room
Two souls
Countless nights of hunger
Poverty makes no friends
Hunger makes only grumbles
Jobs worked to the bone
They're both so tiny
I want to save them
Carry them to a better life
But I'm too young
too inexperienced in the world
worlds apart from me
I hide hope under the milk carton
Hope in the form of a $50 bill
I've no need for it
I have a want
But that is overcome by their need
By my love
Ride out the storm
I'll come save you
Just give me time to mature
When the time comes
I will save you
I will by the God damn grace of my hands
Save you
I will carry you on my back through the flames of hell
To safety
For I love you
I don't want to take you to bed
I want to take you home
You are my family
not of blood
But of love
2 souls
1 love
Countless reasons to hold out

(645.) Topic: Shoes 11/01/06
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Walking in ruby slippers
She glides gracefully across the screen
Color temptress of the world
We rest in black and white
But dream in vibrant hues
Our dreams manifest into Gods
beasts
and loves
You were there
he was too
and you were in love

(646.) Topic: Food 11/01/06
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If the world was made of gumdrops
the world would be melting
If the world was made of chicken
It'd be half-cooked
If the world was made of Skittles
the blue would kill the red
If the world was made of food
We'd eat it all too fast

(647.) Topic: Hate 11/01/06
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You're blind
Blind with hate
blind with eyes of glass
That shattered and you put them back in
But they're cracked
And the shards keep cutting you
Blind with pain
caused by your own carelessness
Blind because you won't wear the glass
Glasses we made
So what if the remind you of me
Did you learn nothing?

(648.) Topic: Stupidity 11/01/06
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You're just stupid
Backwards
Stupid, you are not just
Look both ways before you cross the street
Don't just trust the word of the blindman
Somethings you just ca't hear
Only when you see both sides,
Look both ways,
Can you be safe
be smart
Don't just blindly cross the road

(649.) Topic: Class 11/01/06
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I am in a class all my own
My father could be rich
but he's too stingy
my mother could be poor
if she didn't keep fighting to keep her head afloat
I am too poor to buy these nice things I own
But so rich in experience
I can achieve my goals
my clothes are second hand
from a first hand
My money is my own
worked for in days short and sweet
I live my life for art
for the culture
I am rich in this culture
But poor to you
So when I retire a millionare of taste
And you retire with more money than you know what to do with
Good luck spending it on something besides short spurts of happiness
I've got my dreams
I'll survive on them
And not spend a penny

(650.) The World Is Full Of Bodies 11/13/06 10:45 P.M.
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We are building up too many bodies.
And not digging enough graves
We are following in his teachings
But forgetting how he saves

I pray that you will love me
Even if the world seems it will end
I pray you won't forget me
When you find out it's all pretend

I'd have to say you're wrong
In believing the world is kind
But please continue in song
It seems to ease your mind

The world is full of so much pain in every sight
Won't you stay by my side, and help me wrong every right?

(651.) Looking In The Mirror 11/28/06 11:45 A.M.
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She was beautiful
Laced with expectations
She unraveled
The eidetic soul she saw
When she peered in her reflection
Made her feel hollow
A sculptured face
With perfect delineation
Was all too insulting
When her mind consumated
Her soul was barren
And no beauty could make up for that

(652.) Meditate 11/28/06 11:47 A.M.
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Silence
Breathe in
Dissmiss the thoughts
You will see them later
Breathe out
You hear the noise
Breathe in
Ignore it
Spine straight
Breathe out
Rinse
Repeat
Now,
look at the world
with a clear mind