(577.) Billaird Balls 06/01/06 11:50 P.M.
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Contemplating the thought patterns of billaird balls
I glanced across the memorabelia on the walls
None of her words made any sense
I haven't seen my mind since

(578.) Your New Life 06/06/06 5:35 P.M.
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I come in peace
I leave in pieces
Cliched ryhmes
It never ceases

I've come for love
I'm come for you
Clear the way
And let me through

I wrote a poem
It contained words
To let you know
Which side I'm leaning towards

I haven't come to love you
I only come to free
I don't want to hold you
You're not for me

My soul says to love you
My heart says to love you
My mind says to love you
I say save you

Save you from this
This life you made for yourself
This detrimental thing
That does not involve myself

I want no part in your new life
To go through that again
I want no part in your new life
So come to me my friend

I apologize
I only want to help

(579.) Huddled Over Trashcans 06/06/06 11:58 P.M.
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I miss the warmth
The warmth of sorrys
The immersion in healing flames
That no matter how soddened with tears
Will always blot away the sadness
I don't miss anyone
I just miss an emotion
An emoton that will catch me when I fall
From any height
No one offers me the warmth anymore
To make one's own fire
is like burning the money
that keeps you warm and alive
in a trashcan
to stay warm and alive
No one should experience such a squalor
Yet I live it everyday
Smiling with a warm smile
Despite my kiln being cold
No ammount of layers
Can keep you warm on the outside
When you're numb and cold
On the inside
Hell,
I live you
Life,
I love you
Love,
I am in your hell

(580.) Love Is My Religion 06/07/06 5:12 A.M.
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Love is my religion
Art is my bible
I walk in utopia
Watering the flowers
For the others who come after
I hobble in inferno
Building bridges over abysses
For those who fall behind me
These poems are my prayers
Each soul is my church
I cull where I implore
I have faith in love
Because it has faith in me

(581.) A Questionare 06/21/06 11:15 P.M.
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Would you give your life for theirs?
Would you happily live your life with this person?
Are they your best friend?
Are you safe in their arms?
Do they make you smile with everything they do?
Do you laugh at the stupidest little jokes they make?
Have you laid next to them and been happy just to be there?
Have you found yourself thinking of them when they're not around?
Does your chest flutter when they're near?
Does the day seem greater, and the night more starry by their side?
Can you honestly say they're your happiness?
Can you let them in on your darkest secrets?
Could you die today, and have no regret bigger than spending more time with them?
Could you cry in front of them?
Would you be honored if they cried in front of you?
Are your sleeves their hankerchiefs?
Do you miss them when they're not there?
Have you memorized their smell?
Does the will to write them ANYTHING, eat you up inside?
Can you remember things about them, even if they only told you once?
Could the world stop from your passion alone?
Is it all mutual?
Answer these questions, then answer your own.
Then maybe you can claim that you're in love.
Untill then, maybe even after then, you've got nothing but a dream
Craft this dream, cull this dream
Someday it will bloom to be love

(582.) The First Of many 06/22/06 7:40 A.M.
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Rest your head with me
I'll light the stars ablaze
Just for you to see

Let me kiss your skin
Every inch I like more
I know not where to begin

It's a beautiful day
With the sun in hand
I will light your way

Follow closesly by my side
Let me show your affection
I shall wear you with pride

I'll paint you with desire
Use you as my canvas
You will feel the warmth of my fire

(583.)God of Land & Sky 06/24/06 12:31 A.M.
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I'm a god of land and sky
The Earth's my lover and I'll tell you why
It rumbles fire down in it's core
I'm the one it rumbles for
Mountains high and rivers low
They grow and flow, for reasons only I know
Traversed the land from coast to coast
Of worldly matters, I know the most
Seen the sky black and blue
Hell I'm the one that makes the hue
Take my hand and you will see
Just why this planet was made for me
From each human, every race
I have crafted each and every face
You disbelieve me now
But soon, soon my dear, you will see how
Follow closesly behind my step
Of the things we see, I am very hep
Trends in weather?
I'll have you know I am the trendsetter
With vibrant wings and slow hands
You will see how I have formed the lands
Look into my eyes
You'll hear naught but truths, you'll see no lies
Thoughts of the new day
They bend on knee to pray
I will bring them a tommorrow
But first, free my sorrow
You seem to be the only one
Who cares...

(584.) Firefly For Show 06/26/06 1:18 A.M.
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Like a firefly flashing in hopes of finding a companion
I show the world my dreams in hopes of finding you

(585.) A World Based on Love 06/26/06 1:21 A.M.
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Come, we will build the world together
A world based soley on love
Will surely someday fall
Lets be there to catch it

(586.) You Know Your Way Around The Stars 06/26/06 1:24 A.M.
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Perhaps if you lead the way,
I could get lost in your eyes

(587.) Autumn Leaves 06/26/06 1:28 A.M.
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Red leaves fall from autumn trees
Sad tears roll down a pretty face
The sky is orange with anticipation
My arms are open with comfort

(588.) Puzzle Piece 06/26/06 1:33 A.M.
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There's a certain spot on your shoulder
Where I fit so perfectly
There's so many places where you fit just right
So my little puzzle piece,
Are you complete?

(589.) Why Not Walk On Water? 06/26/06
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Treading softly on the reflection of our amour
The pool of passion never once gives way

(590.) Trust Me 06/26/06 1:47 A.M.
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Your words,
My ears.
My dreams,
Your fears.
Your eyes,
My relief.
My heart,
Your belief.

(591.) A Beauty So Pure 07/01/06 2:01 A.M.
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To show a beauty so pure,
Would be a god dying at your feet
Through all the blood and pain
Wash away all the sadness
When you are drowned in your sea of guilt
And the only thing keeping your head above the water
Is this beautiful creature lying at your feet
This beautiful dead God
And it's love
It's love that stains your hands
The love that died for you
Beauty so pure
Is so frail
It would shatter in your hands
And lie dead at your feet
But when your think your tears are coming
You can not cry,
You can only marvel in it's brilliance

(592.) Fall 07/05/06 7:39 P.M.
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I expect no reward,
I want you to feel no remorse
Your happiness,
is all I want.
So,
when I fall
fall in love
fall in combat
Fall for you
Do not worry
I fell not in vain

(593.) City In My Mind 07/05/06 7:57 P.M.
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I view skies of Gray
Dark towers with green lights
Towers breaking through the sky
Lightning breaking through the ground
Ruby eyes dotting each street corner
Ruby fires dotting every soul
Fueled by love
Fueled by hate
Murderous creatures
Loving paladins
They roam this city
This city in my mind
Warring for affection
Warring for revenge
Shall I grant them their wishes
In this city with it's cracked streets
It's broken streetlights
Skyscrapers scraping nothing but their agitation
Down with the monotany!
Down with the change!
Let's live life
Not just watch as it goes by
In my city
In my brain
I sneak away
To sooth the pain
Within this city
inside my mind
I am not special
Here is more of my kind
Clouds curtain the world
The world from the sun
Gray skies overshadow
That life has begun
Why is something so dark,
so beautiful and reassurring
In this world of bright skies
And lions roaring
In this city
Inside my brain
As the rain
Runs down cracked window pane
Let me walk the streets with you
Show you my home

(594.) Thin Line
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Joy, you come to me when I am at my lowest.
You mock me at my highest
Sorrow, you mock me when I am at my lowest.
You come to me when I am at my highest.
Deep lashes do you leave in your wake
Hard callous scars mark where you walk
Scars of the flesh and of the spirit
One I show with pride
The other I boast with envy
I walk this fine line between you
This gray space in time
This gray space in me
Either side is deep oceans
Oceans I would gladly drown in
My choices in the clouds
My dreams in my hands
I would gladly drown in these regrets

(595.) I Would Not Walk 07/09/06 7:37 P.M.
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I would not walk,
In fear I leave you mind
I could not talk,
For I do not want to dull you
Should I breathe,
Or fear that I may take your air
Can I grieve,
I do not want to drown you in my tears
I shall not spread my wings,
So that I may still walk through your door
I shall bow to you as I would to kings,
Just so I could be closer to your floor
I Dare not think,
For fear that I may forget
Shall I not swim than sink,
So that I may be your stepping stone
I will not, no, I can not die,
For who will be there to catch you when you fall
But how will I, no, how can I,
Live when you are not with me

(596.) That Smell 07/11/06 1:59 A.M.
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I'm not sure what it was
There was just something
Something about the way he held it in his fingers
I could tell he could not live without it
But wanted to throw it away for good
It was in his eyes too
A pure love
A purer hatred
Was it addiction?
Or purely habit?
I'm not sure
So I go to buy him more

(597.) Whole Truths 07/11/06 2:04 A.M.
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In life I live half-lifes
In lies I tell whole truths
On either side of coin I flip,
I shall always lose to you

(598.) A Degree In You 07/18/06 11:27 P.M.
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Come, take off that etamine.
You know you're my amphetamine
Drive my brain
Stop driving me insane
I can't fight this afinity
Help me find infinity
This love is estoric
Come with me, we'll make it historic
Speak to me of theory
Speak untill you're weary
I will devour every letter
Each word tastes even better
Teach me of your world and ways
I have endless, countless days
Study of only one subject will do
I need a degree in you

(599.) Sacrificial Bonds
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Sacrificial bonds we tie
In hopes of being together
While stripping away our own self
We gladly clothe our love with shed life
When they do the same
Trully,
We shall never be naked
When we have love

(600.) The Glass Bottom In My Soul
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I was too foolish in my searching
Too hasty in my retreats
I don't need love
I want love
But I couldn't differentiate
Who could?
My God, who could?
Not me,
I've failed
I have honestly failed
It has been so long since I've fealt this
This feeling of overwhelming defeat
Tears come to me
Not in sadness
Not in happiness
Just in defeat
I've held the world on my shoulders
And I dropped it
You forgive me,
You all do eventually
But I can't forgive myself
Love is something for those who deserve it
I deserve nothing
No pity
No sympathy
Just, this defeat
I won't let myself stay fallen
But I won't fly so high again
Reaching for the highest shelf
ever so slightly out of my reach
I'll never get it on my own
But I'll never want it with you helping me
I write these words
For me
To bandage wounds I myself have inflicted
To sever ties I myself have hoped for
Life comes on no silver platter
Dreams can never be granted
Lest you live them
But to live I have to wake up
And end my infinite dreaming
God is just another thing I dream of
Surely I can't be a god
Not without you atleast
But I don't even know who you are
I have hit my low
Scraped away the darkness that covered my glass bottom
And looked at the helpless me,
Cowering in the corner
It made me want to cry
So with a heavy heart
I apologize
May those who believe in me,
never read my weakness
For those who follow me,
may you never doubt
Like I have

(601.) Sun In My Hand
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I would hold the sun in my hands
If it did not burn me so cruelly
I sit in it's warm light
I bathe in it's rivers of rays
But it scars me
I drink too much from it's goblet
And I shall surely die
I cannot live without it's warmth
Though someday I will die by it's light
Fly too close and your wings will surely melt
I hold your love in my hand
And it burns me.

(602.) God's In My Engine
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God is in the asphault.
I drive him everyday
God was in the dinosaurs
Who fell into tar they say
Dinosaurs died so long ago
Yet we use them still today
So technically God's in the oil too
I have the holy spirit in my engine, hurray!