552.) Heaven's Tounge 02/28/06 12:06 A.M.
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Oh Heaven's golden light
with subtle tounge
Open mouth
What Beauty have you spit on us?

553.) Coffee & Cigarrettes 03/07/06 11:49 P.M.
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We'll drink champagne from our coffee!
To paris in the 1920s we shall toast
With perfect resonance around the world
Free energy from the nectar of the God's
I feel so divorced from the world
The opera keeps on playing
Such sweet music to my tired ears
I'd say it was the healer
The tree hugger
Drug dealing bastard
but no, the DJ keeps the beta going
Perhaps,
The world stopped spinning,
May I get off?
No rest for resting
No hope for the hopeful
So far away
Brazil
Brazil
I'm coming home
After my coffee break
To moulin rouge and the late 70s
No thank you, I don't like cigarrettes
They'll kill you you know
Besides, no smoking in the lobby
How much longer do we have to drink champagne?
2 minutes?
I think I'll take a nap
Wake me up when the opera's over

(554.) Why in the Spring? 03/12/06 12:26 A.M.
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I'm not saying you don't love him
I'm not saying he doesn't love you
I'm saying you're getting married in the spring
You just met in the winter
Teenage love is not a lie
But it has no foundation
Those with no legs cannot stand
On their own two feet
He may be your crutch
She may be your pillar of light
Or some other philosophical bullshit
You just met him
You cannot claim love at first sight
untill you are much older
Older than you are now
You have to go through love
Many times
Before you can even claim you know what it is
Even then you'll be wrong
I waited 7 god damn months
7 months
Do you know how long that is?
When since week one you have been yearning
To SCREAM it at her
but I waited
Till I meant it in every god damn way I could find
It hurts much more to hear it
and be lied to
Then to never hear it at all
Please,
make sure you mean it before you say it
Please,
think before you act
I am not saying you're not in love
I am not saying you're lying
I am saying you are stupid
That I am stupid
That there is no one whoever was
or ever will be
Who was smart enough to claim any knowledge
in something called love
Distinguish between love and hormones
Distinguish fast
It may be your downfall
You just met in the winter
Why get married in the spring?

(555.) Choose 03/13/06 12:56 P.M.
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I'm loved, this I know
Why can't I like these?
It's so obvious that they want
Want what I am
I throw myself at those that don't
Don't want what I give
But all I give is myself

(556.) Firefly 03/13/06 12:58 P.M.
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Love eludes me, like firefly
I have my jar in hand
One leaf and two twigs
Holes poked in top
So that I won't suffocate
Love that is so elusive
One warm summer night
I caught love
Flashing brightly full of dreams
I didn't know,
I was so young
So young and so full of hope
Hope fors futures
Futures with love
I should have let it go
Caught it again
But it's light blinked twice
I shed one tear, no more, no less
Love left
This place
This world
It left me

(557.) 1000 Candles 03/13/06 1:05 P.M.
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Oh the lights
Jay look at the hues
It is so hard to imagine
My flower is in those lights
1000 candles burning
All at once
I hope my flower
Isn't ablaze

(558.) Relationship 03/13/06 1:08 P.M.
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1, I count sadly
2, there is hope
3, is too many

(559.) Equality 03/18/06 12:35 A.M.
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One life for another
One arm for one arm
One symbol drawn in blood
He burns the man alive
The children ate slowly at it's flesh
Newborn children with ravenous eyes
One heart, one soul
I give for you
You would kill your own son
To live
I drew one symbol on the ground
5 symbols on my body
My new body
He would have his life
I would have my faith
He is new
I am old
Life has begun once more
In tragedy

(560.) Dayku? 03/21/06 1:06 A.M.
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Just like those old days
With sunshine full of love
Days we never had

(561.) Feint Glow 03/26/06 3:36 A.M.
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There's a feint glow over the arena
I think it's love
Whatever it may be
I want to catch it

(562.)so Apologetic 03/26/06 3:41 A.M.
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I should not be so apologetic
Over something as grand a gift as this
Then why do I say sorry,
After every "I love you."?

(563.) 17 Years of Life 03/26/06 4:03 A.M.
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What if I worry for tommorrow,
but party for today?
I set my plans on golden pillars
yet act them out on paper hopes
Ripping holes in things unrippable
Repairing holes in things unhurt
Dreaming dreams in other languages
Languages I don't know
thinking about life and all that implies
While I waste it away
17 years in,
Already behind
It's time
To catch up

(564.) Morning Air 03/28/06 6:31 P.M.
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Good morning time,
Good morning space.
Good morning world,
and the human race.

Dawn is an instance,
One tiny little spot
Keeping pace with life
Not once was it caught.

I woke up early
I thought to myself
If this trully were reality
Would it realize itself?

Street lights fading
Let me know the cause
The cause for my distant longing
Is brought forth inside my flaws

Moon stays out past it's bedtime
Stealing a bit of light from our daytime
But it won't be out a longtime
Just long enough to live a lifetime

The day that I shall die
That is the day on which I shall realize
The thing for which I long
Was right before my eyes

All this thinking
Has left my mind in wreck
Thought of my insignificance
I am but tiny speck

When mist clears from the ground
I hope the world is still here
For if it were to vanish before I said goodbye
The world would drown beneath my tear

The new day is my canvas
I have come to paint
The only thing I hope for
Is that I show restraint

Who is it that I wake for?
What reason do I live?
Through all my years of exisistence
An answer life will not give

I have come to realize
That things are not always fair
But I have accepted this
As I breathe in morning air

(565.)I'm Really In Love, With Nothing 04/26/06 3:00 P.M.
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Please, stop.
you're not in love
Please stop,
neither was I
Please stop claiming that you're in love
There is no way that me
nor you
nor anyone in our day
in our age
or life
could ever understand
what the fuh...
What are you doing?
I hate what you do,
but I have no right
for I don't know what hate
is.
it's just you hormones
open your eyes,
close your legs.
you don't know love
Please stop,
I love you.
and you're breaking my heart

(566.) Valant Knight 04/26/06 3:05 P.M.
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Knight in shining armor
Man of steel
beneath the flesh
beneath the steel
I recieve no solice
in your empty words
In your empty eyes,
the only things of you
visible beneath that armor
Armor I want to
penetrate
keep being valant
knight
A knight who saves us all
I found your chink
let me repair it
you ignore me and save the world
I'm you,
listen to my words.

(567.) I Can't Believe the Truth 05/01/06 12:53 A.M.
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Do you know where they grow?
The ones who seem to know.
No longer live.
 
It would seem
We're living in a dream
Cut short

By the new day
Which shines as if to say "Hurray!"
Optimism wasted

Wasted perhaps on my callous youth
Which askes for far too much truth
None of which I believe

Please, just go ahead and lie
The truth would be too much for me to try
To some how understand

I'd lie to myself if it made it easier to live
So many lies so little to give
Too bad I gave up

(568.)I Walk In Valleys Where Gardens Grow 04/26/06
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I walk in valleys where gardens grow
And gardens how they grow
All the while I'll always know
You will never show
That you will love
and that I will care
and that we will sometimes be together
but still I know
that I will walk through the valleys where the gardens grow
oh the gardens grow
with vines so high
and roses so full of pain
I know that I will always walk in the valley
oh the valley where the garden grows
the rain runs down the mountain
drowning us beneath
but always after bodies wash away
the garden grows
the garden grows

(569.) I Will Lick You Like Flames 05/02/06
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And I will lick you like flames
Flames escaping from a lost hope
a forgotten dream
my embers will burn holes in your heart
I will use every bit of this oxygen you call
life
my tounge will quell whatever fears that your soul
may
could
will
ever have
I see you, sitting to the side dejected and alone
may I comfort you?
my cat will wander the streets in front of my home
she will not come home lest I bring her
must I bring you home?
I worry, we all know I worry
to worry about something so carefree
I drown myself in idiocy
suicidal thoughts and a caring friend
these are the only things that keep you sane
but my fire shall burn bright
I met a harlet
she showed her love to me
she showered me with it
All she wanted was a good time
Should I feel bad to deliver?
There was an irate look that her voice often took
She, not knowing what she wants from life
Wanted me
if only for an instance
Quickly she changed her mind and was less than kind
She still calls me though
Is she calling for help?
Confusing the hell out of me
Then there is another,
she invites me to her home
She shares her stories
She lays on my arm
She speaks of other men
other boys
other passion
I back away and don't know what to do
the cards all said I would be rewarded
that my work with all these fickle matters
will bring me someone to make happy
let's hope they make me happy too
should I stay alone,
and bring home my cat,
but once a week?
who will be my air?
where shall I burn?
I would love to comfort you
show you the world is grand
may I warm your heart
warm it with what little love I have
do you already have a flame?
should I just fade out?
No
I see you across from me
I see your sweet smile
of insecurity
not knowing what to think of me
and it warms my day
you add coal to my cold fire
I want you to sit next to me
take warmth in my love when you are cold
take comfort in my passion when you are lonely
the wind outside is chilling
my furnace burns strong
but weak
I shall bottle up my fire
my love
were you to let me in
I would shower you in flames of gold
gold that midas himself would be jealous of
flames that satan himself would fall to
love that would burn hell
love that would light earth and sky
love that I have little of
but save it all for
someone
someone who needs to keep warm
come,
sit by the fire with me
let me set your soul ablaze

(570.)Cherry Lozenges 05/04/06
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Her whole world is cherry Lozenges
Melting down for short satisfactions

(571.)No One But A Stranger 05/04/06
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No one loves them
No one cares
But me and a stranger

(572.) Say, 05/04/06
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Say,
Who is in those sheepish shoes?
Why are black men singin the blues?
For two dollars I get a quarter
The rest is nothing but disorder
It's the pretensious few
Who look down their noses into mirrors, accusing you

Say,
Who's right?

(573.)No War Today 05/05/06 3:43 P.M.
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Tears ran down a pretty face
Words fell out a wretched mouth
The feelings shared were nothing more than sadness
No war today, no war tommorrow.

(574.) Sea of Regrets 05/08/06 10:21 P.M.
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I'm nothing but a sailor
In a sea of regrets
Wearing a life jacket of dreams
No ammount of hope,
is going to fix the hole in the boat

(575.) Fickle Life 05/16/06 11:36 P.M.
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Oh, fickle life, what do I want from you? 
Oh fickle me, what do you want of yourself?
These questions will go unanswered
Unless I answer them.
For a world I love so much
So much I find to hate
So much I plan to fix
So little time

(576.) Oh Hopeless Inhibitions 05/31/06 8:00 P.M.
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Oh shadow on the window
Are you a reflection of me?
Oh darkness on my shoulder
Do you oppress or set me free?

With severed hands and open arms
I clap to you for your trangressions
With my empty hopes and foolish dreams
I melt away all of my agressions

If people were naught but wishes
I would keep them for a rainy day
If the world would ever have me
I do believe I'd send it away

Wading through the mellow hours
Drifting through the countless days
I sway in motion with the water
Floating wherever it sways

Oh callous aspirations
What am I living for?
Oh hopeless inhibitions
Do you not hold me anymore?

I would dream of nowhere
If I could share it with you
But I think of somewhere
And I know not what to do