(527.) Chaos 12/29/05 4:29 A.M.
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Let the world be torn asunder
By the power bestowed in my unworthy hand
I call forth power beyond power
From darkest dark to light that shines brilliant
Combine your force within this anger I now hold
Unbind your thoughts and give unto me
Together our power shall spread apart all that we see
Forgive not those who think they are good
No good shall come from those that think it should
Purification of all land
From this power in my hand
Chaos shall reign supreme

(528.) Me For Me 01/06/06 5:53 P.M.
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I once fell in love
With someone from long ago
I am still in love
With someone who could care less
I'm in love
With someone who doesn't know what love is
I hope I can find someone to love
Who loves me for me

(529.) That Feeling 01/06/06 5:59 P.M.
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I'm taken aback
I shift uncomfy
What do I say?
You look with your doubtful eyes
I don't know what to do
Neither do you
You're so beautiful
You make me forget how to breathe
No words
Descibre
That feeling

(530.) Fridge 01/06/06 6:13 P.M.
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(531.) Have I Strown This Far? 01/08/06 3:34 A.M.
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Really, have I strown this far?
Looking back to see the path behind me
A sleepless night lit by only the feintest star
I pray for something, to someone, I don't know

I do believe, I shall go on
The road is so dauntless
When you're walking into the dawn
With no tommorrow

(532.)I Am Who I Am 01/08/06 3:38 A.M.
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Who Am I?

I am the Red headed romanticist
Who
Loves the world

I am the glasses wearing poet
Who
Wishes only to help

I am the miracle birthed boy
Who
Was supposed to be a girl named Autumn Michelle.

I am the female loving hopeless
Who
Has no one to hold.

I am striving to be the hero
Who
Anyone can call on in a pinch.

I am the wise-cracking asshole
Who
Means no harm to anyone.

I am the Agnostic fool
Who
Wishes he could find an answer.

I am the second son of my mother and only son of my Father
Who
I love very dearly.

I am the student striving to go to Emory
Who
Wants to study poetry and the human psyche.

I am the special person
Who
Is told that he is smart.

I am the idiot
Who
Believes them.

I am the child loving person
Who
Wants nothing more than on to call his own.

I am the man
Who
Would be happy with nothing to his name, if he had someone to hold.

I am the sickly boy
Who
Missed so much school when he was younger.

I am the fisherman
Who
Throws himself out there everyday, hoping for a bite.

I am the one
Who
Wrote this very poem.

I am the idiot
Who
Though that was funny.

I am the one
Who
Will now call it quits.

(533.) i seem to have let go 01/08/06 3:56 A.M.
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holding dear to what i have so little of
i seem to have let go

(534.) Edible 01/08/06 3:58 A.M.
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It's bitter when I bite into it
But delicious when I throw it away

(535.) So Little 01/08/06 3:59 A.M.
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To say so much with so little
I am told it is a gift
To hear I love you
Is the only gift I need

(536.) Sun Just Out of Reach 01/09/06
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Like fingers reaching for a sun just out of reach
The forest sits and listens to the preacher preach

(537.) Yesterday's Labor   01/09/06
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Scratches on the table hint at yesterday's labor
I wonder who put them there

(538.)Translate 01/16/06 2:11 A.M.
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Translate
What I now write
Into words that you can read
Since obviously
We're not speaking the same language

(539.) Moved 01/16/06 2:12 A.M.
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The mountains moved
Their grass blew gently in the wind
Slain by forceful blow
I recieve no reward but my own death


(540.) My Parents 1/18/06 12:46 A.M.
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Oh father, my father
Won't you teach me how to die?
For when my time comes
I will not recieve a second try.

Oh mother, my mother
Won't you teach me how to care?
For when I'm holding her hand
I'll know she's really there.

Oh parents, my parents
I am nothing but a reflection of you
So when I look in the mirror
I know what sins that you can do.

My mother, oh my father
Look what you have done!
You brought forth this being
Upon the will of everyone

Hopeful father, caring mother
I shall always know
That I carry with me all your dreams
No matter where I go

So father, so mother
Won't you please forgive
That when I am on my own
It is not your life I live

(541.) Just Nothing 1/29/06 4:44 P.M.
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Please forgive this state of mind
It's just a little mood of mine
Not knowing what to think
No depression's sink
Not happy, not sad
Not that good, not that bad
Not apathetic
Not apologetic
Just nothing

(542.) Who Are We? 1/29/06 11:29 P.M.
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I am you.
You are I.
Who are we?
Emerald eyes tell me of hurt and trouble.
Black tears stain a pretty face
Porcelain skin hides that hard silver
I shall not give up
Cast aside and defeaten.
I shall not fall
For,
I am in love with an idea
An idea you must be a part of
Seventeen hours, thirty-four minutes, and ten seconds
If I am you,
Who are you?

(543.)It's Disarming 3:02 A.M.
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There's something in your eyes
It's disarming
There's something in your smile
And it's harming
All that I am.

(544.)Black Heart 02/10/06 8:36 P.M.
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As if stone
No words escape the mouth
Gravity pulls these words back
My feelings gravitate around my heart
My actions flare up from simple reactions
Black hole formed
Density at it's core
Worth more than any words
Nothing escapes it's pull

(545.)I Moved The Stars 02/10/06 8:42 P.M.
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Raised arms part heavens
Bringing eyes closer to climax
A flash of luminious hopes
Spelling out the meaning of love
Simple actions bring such cataclysmic emotions
Crafted from pure dreams
These vessels of life and death
Holes in heaven
Giving peeks to what I'll never achieve
Against all odds
Raised arms bring love to life
Eyes enlightened by what they want
One man moved the stars
You were unimpressed

(546.) Harmonic 02/10/06 8:49 P.M.
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A deaf man sings a song
The blindman paints
A symphony I wrote for you
Played on broken glass
No noise was heard
No show was played
Everyone kept moving
You walked away
The standing ovation
Deafened me

(547.)Mortalitity 02/15/06 8:07 P.M.
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As my own soul oozed from me
I did not question my mortalitity.

(548.) Perfection Over the Fence 02/17/05 6:36 P.M.
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Perfection is a place you will never see
It's right over the fence covered in shade by tree
You stand on tip toe in hopes to see even a glimpse of the grass
Stop straining your kneck

(549.) You Want What I Have? 02/19/06 2:56 A.M.
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You want anger like my anger?
Fury that could burn through every soul?
From your stomach I shall rip out every death
Every life
That you fucking repent for
You lie to yourself and to God
Each Jewel I will place on a necklace
You can swallow it again
Will it make you whole?
Full of anger, with fire in your eyes
Will you be satisfied?
No
No forgiveness
Now
Nor ever
You want sadness like you see in my eyes?
Sadness so disarming you cry at every glance
Everything you see reminds you
Reminds me
What I, no we, have done
Our hands are sullied my child
I have born you unto a world of hate
A world that I thought you would change
You changed the world
You stole his life
You stole my dreams
Our hands are bloodied with my sins
Your eyes are sad with your crimes
My anger burns only in my chest
I have failed no one but me
Perhaps you want love like my love?
Love that burns everything I touch
Love that scarred my eyes and heart
Drenched in sadness
I still give out my love
He made me
I made him
Life is so cruel
I give my love to you
I have nothing but my love
Each Jewel on my necklace, I placed for you
Wear it round your kneck
let them know my child
You carry so much on your shoulders
Please
Change my world once more

(550.) The Girl With The Stylish Hair 02/21/06 7:50 P.M.
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Smile babe, you already won.
Wear your hair down and fear the sun.
Shake your hips and feel the feel.
Nostalgia and all that jazz can be real
You've got a timid look and a sad face
It may burn but it's still a warm embrace
Feel the needle pierce the skin
Loves on your side and you're bound to win
Cut the cool and quit the hate
Keep on reelin, forget the bait
Silver sleek and hope in hand
Drag the C, you're the coolest cat in all the land
Place accents on thing you can't say
You'll always get your way
Don't you shed your wings or molt your lips
Remember hun, it's all in the hips
Shake the fury and make the scene
To me it's never obscene
When angels tred in human skin
Longing for a feeling to be akin
With love and sweat, my blood and tears
Keep on shaking, it may take years
Dance, dance, dance and never stop!
Even when tempo drop
Smile babe, I like the way you are
Feigned by no scar
Place where flight once stood
Who cares what's misunderstood?
Molars shining like a new dime
An affinity for his wisdom is no crime
Three by three we stack for now
Perhaps old man winter will know how?
Short in stature and quick in speak
Perhaps that's why their knees are weak
Wearing heels for the snow day
Clap your hands say way!
Vancouver where the hope's alive
Shake the hip to the jive
Expo 86 and 2 for a dollar
With a hint of thrift store on a designer collar
Tea em in tea with Donatello and Michalangelo
Spoon God, what does he know?
But what could I possibley do for heaven's touch
I've got my music but that ain't much
Keep shaking baby, the world's starting
Soon you will be parting
Hair or sea
It's all the same to me
I know I'm not worthy to even hold your hand
But I know your secrets and I've heard the band
You've got something girl, and I've seen you wear it infront the glass
I've seen you dance and let hours pass
Show me someday why I'm not ready to be on Heaven's arming?
There's something about you girl, it's disarming
I'll write my song
You'll sing along
But I know you won't mean it

(551.) She Was Ready 02/25/06 3:36 A.M.
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She came to me and she was ready.
She was ready to give everything away.
Tears still dripping from her eyes
Voice still cracked with sadness
She was ready
Her love was so strong that it would give up itself
The man she loved was working for her
For me
She could not stand this burden
This distance
She came to me and she was ready
Beauty at her age is uncommon
She was a rare pearl to find
Beautiful even with her makeup running and her love in hand
She came to me and she was ready
To sacrfice her happiness
For mine
I knew at that moment what loves was
Love was self-detrimental
Self-sacrifisal
Unselfish
But at the same time caring only for it's self
It is a sacrifice made from it's dreams
She came to me and she was ready
her wedding ring in hand showing doubt
Showing guilt melting away the saphires
Perhaps the saphires were guilt
Hardened as a reminder to her everyday
"This man loves you" they would say
I helped him ask her that day
His heart racing and his mind not there
Thinking he was going to die
Then she just started to cry
On one knee
But not without permission from me
Which he had and will always have
But on that day, she was ready
She would not let him bear this stress any longer
She would not move her baby from his friends
Life shall be perfect for my son!
I told her to calm down
I knew she was not thinking straight
Or so I thought
She probably was thinking more clear in those moments
Than I could ever hope for
My mother came to me
With wedding ring in hand
Her husband a thousand miles away
Crying great rivers of love that would drown any man
She came to me
She was ready
I told her I loved her
I held her in embrace like the way she held me
When I was sick
When I was sad
After I had a nightmare
When anything in life had gone bad
I told her it would be alright
That he loved her too much
To just let her go
But she was ready
On that faithful day
When I decided to move away
I still lie to my friends
About why I decided to move in the end
She deserved to be with the one she loved
She had sacrificed her whole life for me
Me and my brother
A single mother and my cheating father
She raised us to be proud
To wear our badges of honor on our shirts
But to never brag outloud
She worked 2 jobs and pulled double shifts
Just so we could have Christmas
She sacrificed her happiness for us
For so long
For too long
Going from one man to another
Really anyone showing her a promising future
For her sons
But she was ready
To throw it all away
To make me happy
but I now knew what love meant
Love was making others happy
At the cost of your own
So I moved away from my friends
I started a brand new life
My mother lives with the man she loves
The man that loves her
She is happy
Through love,
I am happy