(477.)Et tu, Brutus?
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Et tu, Brutus?
He said to me
For a second I felt sorry for him
For a second

(478.) Melancholy Undergrowth
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In the broken glass
Jesus walked and cut his feet
They laughed almost
But thought otherwise when he glared at them
The cement slightly burned his soul
Defiled by the melancholy undergrowth of hate
We thought about this in the discord white room
The path was now covered in his blood
Should we blindly lead him once again
Away from the Stairs
Or should we walk into the blender ala puree
It is of no consellation
We dropped the crane
Jesus smiled for a second
The three-pronged claws were slick
He fell again
Resting next to a plushie Budha
We tried again
Our hands were bleeding
The rolex caught my eye
I had one quarter of salvation left
I bought a Wal-Mart brand rootbeer
It'll taste good in hell
Bill offered me another soul
I accepted
I used it to play the only game I win
Everytime
I put it in
It gave me 4 pieces of myself
I bought a stick of gum
Budha laughed
The witchdoctor began to hum
3 parts of my second soul
The devil walked up
Said he'd give me $100
He held monopoly money
it was tempting
I sent him packing
The white-washed glassdoor slid open
She greeted another person
Checked there things
Their shirt said slut
My cell phone rang
Satan again
I said not now
3 parts still unspent
A Christian began preaching to the cash register
Jesus joined Budha in laughing
I opted for a sticky ball of goo
It smelled of hell
It glooped like heaven
Nothing but Purg
2 pieces left
The sandy beech of black and yellow
Sun rose, sun fell, sun die
Lucky triple 777's hot damn,
5 quarters
I paid Bill back
He seemed eager to accept
1 part
Younger days of silent
Her hair was reddish blonde
Strawberry I heard it described
I missed her
With my Batman suite I came to her door
She was a fairy
Her sister a witch
Which witch?
The evil witch
Wicked Witch of the West which had a green face
And such deliscious apples
I bet they have grown proper
I have grown quite unright
Jesus shakes his head in disagreement
Budha laughs as Muhamed tries to stab him to no avail
I think I'll keep my quarter



(479.) Promises
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I

I made a promise, one that I may never keep
But I will not give up on even when my soul it weep
I promised a lot, a lot more than I had
Promises made and broken, my soul would go bad
I was not meant to be here
On this Earth so blue clear
My place in time has been faded
By my actions always so jaded
I think maybe I am to blame
For my lives sad shame
My mother toiled so long for me
All this time I could see
She did it for me and my brother
She took the hand of another
One she did not want to own
All because her blood was thicker than her bone
She accepted that ring and said she do
With each sad sigh I saw, she try to tell me "It's all for you"
I think my brother realized this, far before I
Far before I could even get the tears to cry
I now break my promise, to my mother that I love
While all the while, cursing at some God above
I am in love I claim, think this alleviates
And so my actions leave me bewildered and my hesitates
I want to be loved, it is all I ever needed
No signs I ever read was headed

II

I wear a button
It says that "
I
<3
Her"
In so simplest of terms
I gave her a button that read"
I
<3
Him"
In such complex words
I often think the button has so many meanings
Is it for my mother?
Is it for my love?
Is it for someone I don't even know?
I often show this button
To me and only me
I often read the button
For to remind myself
Of a promise I once made

III

Promises, so fleeting in their lives
Lives that were only breathed of dreams
Hope for futures that may never be
We place so much on these short-breathed fantasies
If we do not keep our dreams and make them come true
We have failed more than we could ever hope to recover from
I promised that I would always wait
I always shall

IV

Worry not my love
My promise born from my love
Is, and shall always

(480.) You'll Catch It  09/15/05 12:24 A.M.
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Don't look at me
You'll catch it
This sin that I now soak my soul in
It is made of my blood
They say if I drink his
All shall be healed
I tried this
His blood I did cough up
I have sinned
Forgive me oh one I do not know
For I am a vial being
Not worthy of your praise
Not worthy of your stare
I love you
I am so sorry
These words that I now say to you
My soul is not worthy
For one such pure as yours
Don't look at me
You'll catch it

(481.) Bewilder All Logic Say 09/15/05 5:18 P.M.
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Two hearts intwine on summer day
Bewilder all logic say
When one give up on love
And the other stay

(482.)Please Mother, Once More 09/15/05 11:22 P.M.
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"Please mother,
Once more"
The little girl pleaded to the ballerina
So the mother twirled
The daughter clapped
She was so happy
"Please mother,
once more"
She thought as she danced across the stage
Kicking high and dancing gracefully
All for her little angel
She came home from the thrilling avent
With no one to greet her at the door
Two messages left on her machine
One message from the bastard
The bastard who left them high and dry
Sends a check once monthly
Thinking this heals all his sins
They went to the movies
Shall be back so shortly
The second message from an angel
Said the car had twirled accross the road
Kicking high and not so gracefully
Bastard and child were killed instantly
"Please mother,
Once more"
She thought as she picked up the knife
"I'm sorry my dear
Not tonight
Mother is tired"

(483.) Secretos  09/21/05 12:01 A.M.
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Poetry is to me
As your native tongue is to you
You breathe it
As it comes so naturally to you
It comes just as easily to me
But it is hard to breathe
With all these things inside my soul
They are not always beautiful
They are far from kind
So sometimes I hide them
In hopes that you
Nor I
Will understand
What deep secrets that I
Me
My
Hide
Por favor no diga mis secretos
A los que no entienden

(484.) Moss Green 09/22/05 3:30 P.M.
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Moss Green
Moss Green
Don't be so mean,
Do you know what I mean?
Moss Green
Moss Green
You say I took your only Black-eyed Pea
It looks like you have many if you ask me
Moss Green
Moss Green
You hoop an you holla
Said I cost you too many a dolla
Father
Father!
Have you heard?
Moss Green claims to have found the word!
Father
Father!
Forgive him for he has sinned
He thinks he has your religion pinned
Moss Green
Moss Green
I am sorry I took your Pea
But it ended up in my mouth by chance you see
Moss Green
Moss Green
Don't be so mean,
Do you know what I mean?
Black fists gave a black eye
Bitter anger leads to a bitter goodbye
Father
Father!
Come here in a hurry!
He's got the shovel ready bury!
Moss Green
Moss Green
What have you done?
You have ruined all yo own fun
Moss Green
Moss Green
You have never won
You know she was not yo only one
She was to delicate for such brutal blows
I am not alone in this, for the Father knows.
Moss Green
Moss Green
Don't be so mean,
Do you know what I mean?
She came running to me, you see
Told me of all the things you came to be
Moss Green
Moss Green
Why did you kill that innocent Pea?
Why did you do this to me?
Father
Father!
Have you heard?
Moss Green claims to have found the word!
The word of Christ, I don't think
The word of Satan seems to be kink
Father
Father.
Moss Green done shot himself
And he done took our Black-Eyed Pea.

(485.) Meshed Pearl  10/02/05 3:11 A.M.
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An angel with weblike annex
Walked benevolently accross the marble
Her reflection shone in the pearls meshed
Beauty, no other word can describe such ardent piety
My heart weeped with every step she took farther away
When she reached Elysium, quietus
I could not but follow
Slowly I meshed the pearl
I raised the equalizer to my temple
I prayed a solemn prayer
Shot a single marvel
Soon, my angel with pearl white skin
Soon

(486.) Dragged Through The Mud 10/03/05 2:44 P.M.
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Resonating sonata
Reverberates my mind
White washed mind
Dragged through the mud
I loved that girl
With her big smile
I loved that girl
With her moist lips
I, who am nothing but my sins
I, who have nothing but the hopes of my father
Love that girl
The music beats slowly
Duwap
Bebop
Please don't stop
Her innocence is apparant
She turns that crimson hue
So sweet
So delectable
Swinging from that tree over yonder
The light hits her white dress so nice
She's not smiling
Neither am I.
I, who had nothing but my love
Go unrequited.


(487.)Begone Ye Beast! 10/03/05 2:50 P.M.
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Unnatural beast
Begone ye abomination
Dare naught spread your wings here!
I see your flight
It fear me not
Yellow coward flying so
I see you sign your name in his book
My name is clean
Yours is dirty with your sin
Begone foul beast
God shows no pity on you.

(488.) 10/03/05 2:53 P.M.
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Father in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done
Thine eyes shall never see
Lands promised unto me
Present gone unopened remain
No white wings
No light but flame
Thine hell is here
Without her
Without you
Father in heaven
Please forgive me
For I have sinned
The ways I shant begin
Thy name in blood
Wrote out on my chest
You died to me that day
Faith, it means naught
In the eyes of man
Thy kingdom come
Thy kingdom go
Thine true love
With skin soft as snow
Thy wrath I feel
Know it real
Faith, is no more.

(489.) Hang Mine Head? 10/13/05 7:43 P.M.
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Hang mine head?
Neigh thine stare thy head on.
Mince mine words?
Neigh thine tell thy true.
Thine God views me whole
Thine ligh from soul
Shall blind you
Doth thou know mine God too?
Art thou not prideful for such a wonderous thing?
Why dost thou not sing?
All his glory, all his might!
His true guiding light!
Vanity may be thine sin
Thine love mine God even when
Thy walk before me
Lecherous creatures of sin you see
Mine head is high
Peering toward mine God in the sky

(490.) Devil With Those Blue Eyes 10/16/05 11:55 P.M.
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You there
Don't think I didn't see
I saw you glancing
Were you looking at me?

Those big blue starry eyes
They're staring stright through my soul
I can tell by you're off-cheek smile
Staring so hard into my whole

I cringe and look away
You're too beautiful and delicate
So graceful and soft
There be no duplicate

Please don't look at me
With those big sad sights
They're shining beacons
Blinding me from my nights

From my dreams
I still see them looking at me
You must be satan the way you peer
Why do I still wish for we?

You burn too badly
For me to gaze
Into those passionate blue eyes
I could be lost for days

Please look away
Spare me from this guilt
Those accusing portals
You tore down the home we built

I want you so bad
I'd sign away my life
But I know what you would do
How you think to fix our strife

You will hurt me no more
I will only hurt myself
Climbing over my dead body
To reach your high shelf

To smell you so sweetly
To feel you so mine
Those big blue eyes
Look away, they are too divine

(491.) God Laughs At Him 10/17/05 11:17 P.M. 2nd - 11:43 P.M.
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God laughs callously at those who tread on his ground
A lone man scribbles out his final words in ash
His love letter to God
God shall never read it
Ever since a small child he loved God
He followed his every word
Always there in church
Always there in prayer
The war is for God he told himself
Against those who oppose his word
God laughed so loudly at the poor man
If only he had known
"If your leaders say to you,
"Look, the kingdom is in the sky,"
then the birds of the sky will precede you.
If they say to you,
“It is in the sea,”
then the fish will precede you.
Rather,
the kingdom is inside of you,
and it is outside of you.
When you come to know yourselves,
then you will become known,
and you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the living Father.
But if you will not know yourselves,
you dwell in poverty,
and it is you who are that poverty."
His final words in ashes
A solemn revelation
Into a sky with no kingdom


(492.) Tatter Box Of Hopes And Dreams 10/17/05 11:24 P.M.
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It is a simple White box
Holding more than time itself
Encompessing my hopes
My time
My dreams
Do not take my white box
Full of my shattered mind
It's a shell of my former life
The only thing I was allowed to keep
She took the rest
He took what she left
They took what they left
I hid my white box of sorrows
My white box of tattered souls
It has but a simple inscription upon it's hull
"To my darling future,
if you are to someday read these words
Please forgive me"
I read these mirrors every night
I close my eyes and pray to myself
If I am to listen
May God hear my cry
Please, let me keep my White Box
With her smell inside
Her picture inside
Our love inside
They took it all
I hid my box
I bide my time
Crying myself to sleep

(493.) Oh Sweetheart  10/31/05 11:38 P.M.
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Oh sweetheart,
I fell and tripped and scraped my knee
You bent down and decided to help me
I laughed and said I was okay
You never listened anyway
Oh sweetheart,
Oh sweetheart,
Sometimes I see myself with you
Other times I know it can't be true
You still talk to me and say hello
Sometimes I know you don't know
How much it means to hear
Those words I hold oh so dear
Oh sweetheart,
Oh sweetheart,
I have a plan for you and me
We'll escape over the balconey
The ballroom will provide the light
I'll have a rope and we'll take flight
Down the wall into the tree
Won't you please escape with me?
Oh sweetheart,
My sweetheart,
You cried and said so long with tears
We've been apart it's felt for years
I'd cry too but I'm all dry
I gave my tears away when you said goodbye
I fell and scrapped up my knee
Big boys don't cry you see
I'll be fine no don't you mind
But thank you for being so kind
Oh sweetheart,
Oh sweetheart,
No more I can't keep up with you
I escaped and you never knew
You said goodbye my sweet dear
That's why I asked you get away from here
You stayed and said we're far apart
I only left because you broke my heart
I trusted you and you let me down
That's why I always never frown
Big boys don't cry can't you see
That's why "I love you" means so much to me
Oh sweetheart,
My sweetheart.

(494.) Would You Have Me Back? 10/31/05 11:48 P.M.
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If I had a million dollars
And I gave it all to you,
Would you have me back?

If I was chizeled and on GQ
and I did it all for you,
Would you have me back?

If I won a Nobel
For a poem I wrote called "Kassi My Bell",
Would you have me back?

If I ruled the world
made everyone bow to me but you,
Would you have me back?

If I fought the devil and won
In my final moments before I'm done,
Would you have me back?

If I bought you a thousand roses
that could illuminate a million noses,
Would you have me back?

If went to college and got a PhD
learned every doctorate you asked of me,
Would you have me back?

If I cried a little at the perfect time
right after the wedding bells chime,
Would you have me back?

If I lived my life just for you
made all yours wishes come true,
Would you have my back?

If I'm me, and I buy you a dozen roses,
I make all my money and spend it on you,
I'd sit awake at night and train,
Study everyday to be smart-enough,
Lived my life as I do now.
Would you have me back?

(495.)  10/31/05 11:57 P.M.
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A single apple
Temptation is her age
Ripe for the picking from the tree
Juicily moist within my mouth
Crimson red and ready to run
It may be poison, it may be pleasure
I take no bite
I eat no food
I wait for whatever scraps
You may feed me

(496.) Because You Allow 11/03/05 6:00 P.M.
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I care
Because you allow
For me to show you
Why
When you stop
Wanting to hear my heart
It will stop speaking

(497.) 1790  11/08/05 5:25 P.M.
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I won't stop writing poems
Not untill I write atleast 1790
Why that number?
Emily Dickinson
She wrote 1789 poems
That we know of
I'll beat her though!
I'll write a lot more than her!
I shall win in the end!
Poems tend to mesh together
When you write so many...
I want to try and convey
Every emotion I can
Write with every style
I can comprehend
In every language
The site will translate.
I'll beat her someday
I'll be in the history books
You'll read about me in English
You'll buy my books
My time will come
Wait and see
1790 here I come!


(498.) On Sunday Morning Last 11/08/05 7:08 P.M.
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On sunday morning last
I saw a beauty
Who's allure was unsurpast
Only by her duty
 
Her onus to my heart
Made from the promises to me
That we shall never part
So I wait and see
 
It's been so long today
Since mine eyes saw the seraph so fair
For more of her love I pray
But to act I do not dare
 
So I wait for her to arrive
To sate my soul to revive.

(499.) Across A Blue Moon Lake
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Across a blue moon lake
A rose petal
Nary a thought in this quake
Ripples sent throughout
A blue ray
It shines down on my face
The thorn began to pray
Help my love home
Bring my red hope
Back to me
Like two cans tied between by rope
I whispered out a message
Please reach her ear
Please let me know
Her voice is all I want to hear
The mirror turned on
It spoke of fire
Samson ripped his arms out
To pull the two spire
Soon they will fall
Let the can shake
My hope lay dormant
Never again to wake
Never again to call
The shape was broken in to fear
I wept
The mirror said move
My rose wilted
Half a rose
Crimson in its sage
The moon never again arose
The blue eclipse lasts so long

(500.) I... 11/10/05 9:07 P.M. - 9:44 P.M.
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No man is an island
I hear these words
I think them true
We are our own world

My best work comes when I am alone
When I have nothing else but my soul
My pen
My will to write
I feel as though sometimes
Writing is my way of telling myself of the world
People say I write with wisdom far surpassing my own
I cannot ignore the sagacity with which I write
I surprise even myself

Counting my short life in paintings
Finger painted new born
Water colored infant
Doodling child
Sketching adolescent
Painting teenager
Though I cannot draw
paint
or even hope to do so
I can write
Your soul is my canvas
Your ears are my brush
My words are the paint

There is something to be said
For the man that can paint so well
That you would remember his art
For years to come
When you read my words,
Do they resonate within you?
Do they not rest so peacefully inside?
I may sound as though I speak gibberish at times
But I only speak my mind
My half uttered words from my half complete marrow

Should not I be proud?
That I can speak to you
Through you to you

I know not
Whether I be destined for
happiness
or for
sorrow
But my soul shall live on
Within these words
Within this picture
This picture I paint

I only want to help
To share with others
So that they may read my soul
And feel captivated
To keep living
To keep hoping
For a better tommorrow

I often fear I will leave you
Leave all of you
Far too soon
So I must help while I can

Can I cry?
I don't know anymore
I cried so much
But never when you left
Only when I left
Did my tears burn my cheeks
Like rivers flowing to perdition
Where you can take the ferry
Anytime you'd like
But always drown on cast-off

I lose myself
Behind my words I speak so softly

To you, I am me
To you, I am him
To him, I am lost
To me, there is no aspiration to die

These words I write in blood
Across your soul
Like tarnished canvas
Stretched out between your misery
I hope to cure you
Of this ailment you feel
That I inflicted

A single arrow
Pierced your breast
Corrupted your heart
Befouled my own
Shot by him
Claimed by me
My words I do write
To show what I feel
What I know to be true
That I...
am too young
too stupid
too arrogant
To admit my own error

So, once again
I write
In blood
In brail
On my own soul
In hopes that you will reach out and read
That through all my faces
All my jokes
My dreams for me
That I...
Am afraid
Afraid that I may speak of heaven
But deliver only hell

Angels often sing of you
Holding you like a Seraph
above this Earth
above my hopes
Like you are the only cure
For what ails this broken body
This serrated blade with no hilt
That keeps slicing in hopes to find
A resting place

I write of things which I know
Things of which I see
Things that have meaning
If only to me
With my phoenix
gushing flames from my mind
you ease my troubles
with your hands so kind

I will say it once
Only once within this
This work I bleed for you
This blood I have no more of
Curtled on me
Will you read?
My soul
For it has but one thing
Which in screams at me night and day
Haunting me
Untill I let it out
That I...
Love you
With all my being
These words I bleed for you


(501.) Bloom, My Baby
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Bloom,
My baby.
Newborn baby
Bloom like it's a new day
Spring is here
Your eyes are open
The world is anew
Just bloom
Cheeks so red and soft
Rose petals dripping dew like tears
Welcome to the world my darling
My darling baby boy
Sunrise on the horizon
A smile on that sweet face
I loved your mother
Enjoyed the cold winter holding close
She loves you
Gentle breezes through the fields
Cold chilled through bone
Flowers wilt in winter
Your mother would have loved you so much
Bloom my sweet child
Spring is here