(402.) The Grass Is So Green
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The grass is so green
After the storm has come
And washed away my woes
No more bloody blades
To flow gracefully in the wind
The pain washed it all away

The grass died slowly
After every flame
And I couldn't make it better
No more blades to mend
To make me happy

The grass was no more
After you scorched my garden
And no water would quell the flames
No hope was left for me

The ground was slowly cracking
After you pounded my hopes into it
And I gave up my will to fight

The Earth was crumbling
After you began this war

The will to live was gone

(403.)
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Can I do nothing
But wait for you to pardon my sins?
I surrender and you shoot me in the back
Do not shoot the medic, let him heal your wounds
I am a man of peace, let me end this war
Stop shooting me

(404.) Swiftly
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Swiftly into the infinity
Do I fall oh so definitively
Check your feelings at the door
Shed all those things you need no more
Realize that you are nothing without the one
Who covers your eyes from the blinding sun
And warms your heart with every smile
That special person that makes you go the extra mile
They must also come to terms with what you do for love
Of why they really float in the clouds above
It's not the man they pray to
But the love that comes from inside you
You may spill out your entire soul
And not even fill a 4th of their whole
So keep trying and never give up the fight
So that you want fall swiftly into the night

(405.) 1 Year
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1 year of health
1 year of pain
1 year of loss
1 year of gain
I was wrong
I was right
You disagreed
We would fight
I say I'm sorry
I say I'm wrong
You comfort my woes
And sing me a song
I hold you close
You love me so dear
I wish I could stay
Forever right here
The waves may be choppy
The storms may rage
But no matter the book
We're on the same page
I would do anything
If it meant to keep you
I say this with ease
Because it is true
You hate me and love me
You love me and care
My soul cries gently
When you are not there
I can't live without
You my prize
For you are the reason
There's hope in my eyes
So stay with me
Through cold nights
Warm days
And the worst of the fights
For those times
When I'm in your arms
After all play
And senseless charms
That is when love
Shines through and through
That is when I look in your eyes
To say I love you

(406.) My Body Be Raped
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I can say no more
I can do no less
My love for you
Is all I can give
Should your heart be consumed in darkness
I would gladly rip out my own
And give it to you.
My body is not important
But your life is
So if you should ill in any way
My body be raped for you today


(407.) Light From Henceforth We Once Knew
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Light from henceforth we once knew
How do you shine so brightly like your new?

You've been beaten, battered, and neglected
Tested before God's eyes and rejected

Why do you keep glowing with the light of day?
When no one answers when you pray?

A lesser thing would give up so easily
Yet you go on happy and carefree

I wish to be like you my golden sun
With your beams I wish to be one

So that I may blink and have my worries gone
No more would I feel like a helpless pawn

Just shine bright and warm my brothers
I'd be unlike all the others

So show me how you do it, you light of the day
Won't you please, show me the way?


(408.) Angels Sight
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Before the eyes of angels that once smiled down
We are now cast out of Eden
To the painful Earth from which we came
If you try to appease them
You only anger their ways
They will send fire down
Your flesh will melt beneath the flames
There is no safe hiding
There is no life
Only death
Angels smile so peacefully
While they burn you alive
Don't fight back, just accept the pain
Because now it is your life

(409.) Meadow
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Suite and tie
With a glint in his eye
Breezy dress
No underwear
She smiles warmly for him at the door
The meadow is so pretty
Yet it is so empty
He wasn't dressed for work
Nor ready to impress anyone
She was wearing it for him
They kissed softly and closed the door
Piece by piece their clothes hit the floor
He smiled and revered in her beauty
She blushed and held him close
The wind blew gently through the meadow
Innocence had filled it's roots
Let the harvest start

(410.) Without Lament
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I wrote what I meant
Without lament
Of what you might feel
I'm sorry for this whole ordeal

(411.) Brain Surgeon
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Penny for your thoughts he said
As he peered into her head
Picking off the maggots with his nails
But being drowned out by her wails


(412.) Love Me, It Is All I Ask
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Love me
It is all I ask
Am I wrong?
Or have I asked for too much?

(413.) Learning Of Loss Of Innocence
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As the children crowd around the crow
Not a single one of them know
What caused this thing to die today
While I sit back and pray
God why show them death and misery?
You did it to I, and those that came before me.
But they are too young to see such pain
If I tried to explain would not my efforts be in vain?
No child should learn of their fate so early in their age
Not even a man as old as I should have to read this page
Yet you force it upon us as if we need to know
Into the afterlife we all someday go
I ask that you spare these children, just for this time
Letting them keep their innocence for just another day, is this such a crime?


(414.) It Is A Sin
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I saw him out of the corner of my eye
A shadow of a man who I despise
He gave all he had to those in need
Which caught me in surprise
So now I smile at him when I pass him by
You should do the same my friend
When you judge a man too fast
Without ever getting to know
His present, future, or past
You may meet the wrong end
It is a sin to judge one another
Yet we still do it day by day
Are we not headed for the fiery hell?
For we go against what God say
We do nothing but harm our brother


(415.) But....but....but...
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Henceforth all business will be dealt with alone.
We can talk a little on the phone.
Now it is two cups instead of one.
And we'll have 3 times as much fun!
At least that's what we say
But....but...but then why do I still cry everyday?
Something is missing, wait, Nevermind
Everything is fine, I'll just smile and be kind
This is the way things are supposed to be.
You're better off without me.
But....but....but what shall I do?
I'm not much anymore without you.
I'll just suck it up and smile
There's no need for denial.
But...but...but what about the year we shared?
I shared my deepest thoughts and you cared
What about all that stuff?
Wasn't a year enough?
Obviously not, so we'll just move on
It's a new day, a new dawn
The sun is shining and I'm feeling fine!
But....but....but what about this shiver in my spine?
Aren't we the happy teenage flings?
Queen of all queens and king of all kings!
Maybe not, maybe I'm just wrong
We never really had "our" song
I don't know anymore, I know I love you
But I can't say it, those days are through
I'm ashamed for both of us
How we always fight and fuss
We were both wrong, we were both right
I wish we could've both understood, before the events of tonight


(416.) I'm Horrible
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I made her cry again
We're not even together anymore
I'm such a horrible person
She used to hold my hand
Now she doesn't
I hate this
Suicide is the coward’s way out
It's hollow in this ghost town
Where everyone hears every pin drop from a mile away
News travels like a virus
Infects every person
Making each one worse
I'm the only cure for this particular virus
But I'm also the cause
Funny how fate laughs at me when I am at my lowest
And laughs harder at my highest

(417.) The Pillar
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I'm walking to the pillar that I can see in the distance
It's not putting up much of a fight or resistance
Soon it will crumble and never rise again
But how long has it really been?
Since this pillar was erected to stand so tall
It hasn't been long at all
Yet now it's crumbling like it's a thousand years old
But for a year it withstood the blinding heat and scorching cold
What has caused it to become so frail
That it would turn mine own cheeks so pale
This pillar that once held the weight of my life
Can now so easily be carved out by a knife
A pillar of power, of hope, and of my love
That could withstand divine intervention from all high above
Soon it shall fall and no one will care
Besides me, no one will be there
I held up one side and she helped me too
But she left, the pillar is through
I just hope I'm not crushed in the debris
My chances are slim, there's nothing to shield me
So I'll keep pushing in hopes it will stand
Without the help of anyone's hand

(418.) The Ferry
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I'm speaking without words to the man across the lake
He peers at me
He says there is a utopia under the sea
And asks Is that where I wish to be?
His smile seems so real, yet painfully fake

I pay his toll and he sends the ferry
As it paddles across the blackened water beneath his boat
Water made by countless men who slit their throat
Then walked in the rain but returned to get their coat
How can this man be so merry?

I take a seat at the stern
He smiles at me and offers me some food
I accept as I don't want to be rude
But they only sour my mood
I wasn't ready for this turn.

Just last week I was swimming in the ocean
Me and my love we were swimming into the sun
I was having so much fun
But as soon as we started, we were done
What caused all this commotion?

I had blinked an eye and onto this shore I land
No sight of my love
But so faintly I can hear above
Her voice as if it were the flapping wings of a dove
Why can I no longer hold her hand?

It's not fair I cry out
The man pats me on the back and says to sleep
He does not come off as a lecher or a creep
So I shut my mouth and don't make a peep
Nothing was meant to shout

I'm still on the boat going over this marsh
Where many men have fallen in
And quickly consumed by their countless sin
The ways they pain, we not to begin
I hope this way is not too harsh

I'll reach the other side soon enough I know
I am so scared and I miss her like I miss the day
No longer can I hear her say
"I love you and it will all be okay."
Where did she go?

(419.) Stars Outside
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No one ever looks for stars when the sun is out
No one ever looks up when it's day
It burns our eyes and we look away
But there you are
The star in my sky
Such a beauty it makes me want to cry
You shine brighter than the sun
Everyone sees it but me
I wish so badly to see
I'm going blind looking for you
The way life goes
I'll never see an end to my woes
But just for a moment
Kiss me one last time
It would be no crime
My eyes burn and my soul is weak
Don't walk away from my dreams
You're what's keeping me in the seams
I'm blind
But I'll keep looking up to catch a glimpse of you
Then my life could be through

(420.) I Asked To Be
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I asked to be killed.
No one killed me.
I begged for forgiveness.
No one was pardoned.
I cried out for help.
No one came.
I longed to be held.
No one hugged me.
I wanted to be loved.
No one cared.
I begged for your forgiveness
You hugged me.
I cried out for your help
You pardoned my sins
I longed to be held by you.
You came to me.
I wanted for you to love me.
You left me to die.
I asked for you to kill me.
You loved me instead.

(421.) Can You Hear Them Sing?
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Field of white
Slowly falling notes
Peace with all
I can hear it
In the silence
Can you hear them sing?

(422.) Long Nose
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He said to me
With weary eyes and long nose
This is how I came to be
It's just how my life goes

(423.) Triplets Music
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Triplets sing and dance
The dog barks hourly
The train comes roaring past
They play the fridge
Suck the vac
Crinkle the paper
Music to my ears.

(424.) Let Me Call You Sweetheart
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Let me call you sweetheart.
Run my fingers through your hair
I sleep to dream you
I breathe to love you
Stop choking me
Let me rest
I only wish to be with you
But I can't call you sweetheart
I can't call you baby
You don't call me anything

(425.) I Am Fucking Worthless
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I am a liar.
I am a cheat.
I am a hypocrite.
I am mean.
I am hateful.
I am ugly.
I am stupid.
I am blind.
I am lonely.
I am arrogant.
I deserve what I get.
I don't deserve you.
I am unworthy.
I am fucking worthless.
I am me.

(426.) Bye
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I love you.
I have to go.
I love you.
I'm leaving.
I love you.
Good-bye.